the rrrelac-1-cornerrr

stephenie meyer wrote to fulfil our deepest desires, of what love could had been.

2008-12-23T00:10:00.000+08:00

I'll be back so soon you won't have time to miss me.
Look after my heart - I've left it with you.

ahh, words frm edward, all so sweet that it has to only be from the prince of fantasies.

if only,..
urgghh.

boys frm a century ago. if only they were rrly ard.
and my blood sang for him to leave him madly in love with me,
that my voice could never be prick on the ear,
that having my tears would tumble his world;
not leaving me there after a quarrel following what he said were my orders.
fine.
i had a week that were too long but i see i shld be enjoying it.
silence, less words = less conflict.

damn, im reading too much of the romance i'm starting to dream to be part of.
urgghh.
if only,..
what's so difficult to be that lil bit romantic?

I woke up killing people and this Cute guy appearing in my hse.

2008-10-17T09:24:00.004+08:00

Whooaaa~ i just realised how long have i not been online. 1mth not blogged, 83mails. & its been mths since i was on friendster and maybe a yr since facebk. lol

Anyways,
i am like so happy with starhub so i decided to SHARE :) like a typical marketing student.
I couldnt sleep like the whole night. since i was back at 3am ystd, i kept waking up running from gta. (i'll further elaborate on this later, too excited bout starhub). And at 730am i tried to watch channel 256. And it was one of my fav shows, xing guang da dao 3. this taiwanese singing contest. So to my horror, i couldnt even watch it! like the screen was blank. (we terminated the old line and signed up again to change the box and to enjoy new member benefits, but 2nd day on, the stupid screen kept showing pls dail 1633 to subscribe. -.- like all the channels except channel 8, u, i, 5, arts. like what the hell. i dun even need svc for those.) so i called 1633. this very nice voice answered; joycelyn (yes im selling..) and i was ermhmgrouchy. but she helped me throughout the near 45mins call & restarted the thing or smt. and i chld watch! happy...
And den, 915am, this guy showed up at my door with a box and im like yes? hur? and he was like errr... starhub? your box blocked? right? and im like??? yeahhh but.. (and im thinking wahhh sehhh.. freaking efficient right) and he told me he stayed ard my area and he rushed down when his salesmen called him (WAH WAH SEH. even more impressed right) and to add to it, he was cute. haha. like young and cute. but a lil young for me. (i like older guys like fishe hurrhurr...) maybe like 18-skinny 172 (at most) in those dirty worn converse, t-shirt jeans and he had a very nice smile . (okay, dont let fishe hear this.) so a cute boy ending up in my place earli in the mornin is okayyyarr.. but when he came in he was like EH? why u can watch this channel? and i was like? why you bring the box? and we were like stunned for like 10s. and we rrly didnt know what to do. and i didnt understd what the heck he was to explain. So i called joycelyn. and i was like. errs theres this guy doing in my hse, and i donno why his here. LOL. so she spoke to him yada and he went off. oh his name is Edmund. hurr~ den 940am. my mom rushed hm. i was like? what happened? (and i got to know, my mom booked an appointment with Edmund to fix the cable tv ystd for this morn) but still, :)
my new starhub remote controller is spoilt and im not even complaining...
im sooo goanna write them compliments!
but its sooo tedious to just write feedback for starhub, soo many procedures.

okayy,
now what i meant by waking up kicking from gta.
im like all obsessed with gta. i know its a rrly old game,
but my sweetheart bought it for me 2wks ago to play on the xbox because i always looked so bored. (hmmm) and i've not started studying because of it! URRGGHHHH...
& i havent been sleeping well for the whole wk. i kept thinking of things. like dumb things. picturing myself in a movie; dawn of the dead. getting chased by zombies, using the dog to pass food across buildings and the zombies eventually gettin in to the building... -.- and i wasnt like just dreaming, i was forcing a dream. if u know what i mean. i was like forcing the story to go on, so i wasnt asleep. and this morn, i had the weirdest experience.. i woke up, like 4 times, with my feet "RUNNING" literally kicking -.- and i prolly woke up 2times (not in shock) getting caught my the cops (after killing someone in liberty city).. SEE!!!! argghhh..
:( & i soo need to club.
yes after exams is the phrase to recite.
i feel like ordering macs..

burrp*

2008-09-12T00:57:00.005+08:00

OK! Here is UTT!!! hoohoooo

damn hot right. me and nur were nearly drolling over him.

& the v calm poh kept asking us to shut up cos we were literally screaming.

or at least i was yelling, "I WANT TO TAKE PIC WITH UTT!" and before i even realised, nur was already talking to him -.- fast.

BUT my lil bubble has been burst. DAMN.

i've always tot of Utt as the really hot and sexy, tall and manly, mascular, tall cute hunk.

apparently things don't turn out as tv as they seem. He's still hot, but not very tall, very cute but maybe not very straight. sob.

WHY!!!!!!! cute men just has diff fetish!

nur and poh were damn funny, trying to debate on the issue that if he's straight.

poh kept emphasizing that he's not straight, like bluntly! saying his GAY!

AHHHH *just visualize. the world came crashing down on me.

nur went, 'no he's not! he dated denise wat!" (NODS FRANTICALLY)

poh: its just a coverup.. (COVERUP SIAAAA....tsk tsk)

nur: ya la. BUT he's not lar.

poh: u 2 r jus living in denial (AHHHHH. GRRRR! I BITE! I WILL RRLY BITE UR SKINNY BONNY ARMS AND SQUEEZE UR BOOBS!)

nur: k stop it. i m still not taking his gay

and all this while, poor amanda whine and has her heart shattered into pieces. *chingching

-if only shattering sounds like that. watever.

i wanted to flaunt my very limited Thai with Utt (like no. 1-10 or like introduce myself, and saying this is expensive.) but apparently my friends had lil faith in my common of Thai. Oh Pls! i speak rrly gd thai k. nxt time i demonstrate. lol

2008-09-08T04:46:00.002+08:00

i cant sleep :(
its the kind of; u-rrly-want-to-do-smt-for-schproj,-but-nothin-gets-progressive kind of FREAKING ME OUT FEELING!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH. darn. i spent 3 hrs on figuring out that there's SOO MUCH TO DO.

damn damn.

2008-09-08T02:44:00.003+08:00

ok im like damn touched.
i tot u guys stopped reading my blog..
sobb...

-
k enough of emo-ing.. :)

i need to find my cable and upload pics.
will do that tml!
now im like super enthu. 2.45am and im goanna do dc proj.

p/s: hohohoho!!!! damn high. i took pic with utt... hahahhaha be jealous.! his bf was there.
hah.
nurr send me the pics we took w utt pls.... hee. DONT DELETE IT ARH! :

i love eating papayas.!

2008-09-03T21:06:00.003+08:00

ahh. :) im back typ'g.. after a nongnongtime.
decided to pack my bag and fly to japan for a breather; (blahblah)
before seating before my papaya and lappie trying to write smt for OB.
& i realised, for the past 2 days, i have only been awake for less then 18hrs.
AHHHH!
sobs. im sleeping my life awayyyyy~~~``

well.. all that i can remember in for the last mth.
I CLUBBED hohoho. with NURRRR. hohoho.
haahhahahahahah!
well, besides that. School's been good.
The people are madly in love with me ahahhahaha!
and of cos, i love them too. heehh. (DONT TWITCH!)
except red pants gayboy marcus lol.
kept tugging under the comforter to watch movies w fishe.
hmm, influenced by ningy and long.
thats what u get when u date a videoeazy girl. hah.
&thats what i get for dating an internet-savvy boy.
nono, he didnt download it.
we stream. ;)

AHHH!! fishe's giving me the glare and asking w a very strict tone,
"ARE YOU DOING UR PROJ???"-.-
imagine, with that long, low and deep sigh. hmmmmm
and everytime i look over he's staring.
gosh, blogging is stressful.
im pretending im work'g u see. ;);)
...
.....
.......AH! but i got caught. :(

(like aft 2 mins)
i havent been skating much, neither have i went shopping.
i been eating and sleeping. ALOT.
:(:(:( i went for lunch with my parents on mon and they were making dirty jokes -.-
i'll share my trauma with all;

my mom's as usual talking bout my tummy getting bigger then hers.
my dad den assures her that iim not fat and i do sports.
so i confessed that all i do now is skating. i've attempted to swim but when i see the pool, i get giddy. and when i tried running, i feel that my legs are breaking and my lungs bursting.
somehow, my parents came to an agreement that swimming is a very gd sport,
with a very interesting theory.
DAD: swimming makes u work ur body and besides, when u run, your breast will sag. and it'll look like papaya (with the papaya hand gesture) -.-
and my mom continued with
MOM: den how bout men?
DAD: oh! they wear ball guards.

and they were like laughing away..... hurrr.

p/s: I MISS NINGY, CHERYL, YANG, NIGEL :'( U ASSES!!!!!!!! *WHINES.

2008-07-21T21:20:00.001+08:00

my dog got bitten by a sznau :(
baby's away at deployment again.
last time. Thank God!

2008-07-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

sch's been gd. :)
made friends.
my baby's been very sweet.
the bus ride's getting better.
kayleighs in aussie.
noticed very weird ppl in class.
hoohoo.
went back to nyp for prata;
met the very fun ppl frm SU.
ah. somehow i missed poly life.
the fun times of cos.
it's so difficult to make friends in uni.

prettypretty. check it out!

2008-07-08T23:47:00.003+08:00

http://www.embelle.blogspot.com

my sister's selling really pretty hair accessories :)
check them out! pass the msg priisssseey.

random load of pics :)

2008-07-08T21:46:00.004+08:00

>my dearest bf makes me the climb the stairs instd of tak'g the lift.

this is what i do to successful make him piggyback me up 4 floors :):) HEE!

BigNose Princesss

A trip with the girls&bf to damsee.
i love Ben's! but i prefer AwfullyChoco.

StJames Night:)
Before jasjie went back.

-ok. blogger is cranky. the pics aint falling to where i want them to be. watever!
BTW! took the 1hr bus to sch and home today. The bus was pretty! Nurul says its called the musicbus.. ahhh ;)
but rrly, the journey is so tiring.... gosh.

baby's angry:(

im happy. :):)

2008-07-07T21:45:00.005+08:00

hoho.
first day of sch at sim was interesting :)
baby was very sweet to send me to and fro sch.
lecture was gd.
the ppl was alright.
met some new people.
NP is freaking big!
i nearly got lost trying to look for its bookstore. damn
hope tml will only be better!
it'll be the first time ever me taking a bus all the way frm hougang to clementi.
thank God i've got Nurul to suffer the long journey with.

//ah, sooo many pics i've taken but didnt had the chance to upload. man.
maybe tml. hah!

2008-06-14T11:18:00.002+08:00

finally i got to meet the very busy huhhneeyy :)
and very nice her boyfriend with my prince for dinner.
it was short and very sweet.
missed u already~ heehee.

went for an enrolment session at sim ystd;
hmm. met some friendly and some rrly not ppl.
hope sch would be fun. at least a lil.
there were ppl from poly that i cld recognised.
the tot of the more then an hr bus ride kills.
sob. stop complain'g. watever;
i shld complain while i still chld.

:):)

2008-06-02T20:43:00.004+08:00

i've finally gotten used to all my friends being soo busy.
school, work. it's going to be my turn soon.
sch's starting early. 7july.
ah! the tot of taking an hr to travel to sch kills.
planned for a hol at the end of july but now..
sob:(
baby decided not to go paris, i hope we chld make smt out of his leave.
he's such a sweetheart.

im graduating on 30dec2009.
mom says its just nice, to celebrate my 21st. wahla~
i'll need to do alot before i start working..

went for bbq at jasjie's ystd. mom asked me to ask fishe along.*cheekily.
though he came aft mom and dad left,
there were too many relatives.
he was breaking out in cold sweat, literally. lol

mom kept asking me to learn composing. rrly hor.
the influence from taiwanese tv progs.
now as i type she's brainwashing me of the huge profit margin.
the copyrights, kbox, and manymany.
she wants to me go the lee brothers to learn.
aiyooo... cute lar my mom.

previously she was watching this drama where there's was this rrly cute 40yr old men who owns a long chain of cosmetic production line, many huge lavender plantations and he was soo in love with a 24yr old. btw, he stays in this castle in france (i know its all in the tv.) but she was telling me there's nothing wrong bout marrying a 40yr old, plus his so cute and successful and if he loves u soo much.... blahblah.. see where i'm coming from. so i told fishe, den he was like HUH! aiyo den how? im like only 22.. den he started telling my friends my mom wants him to be 40 blahblah. tsk tsk.

im back!

2008-05-28T15:51:00.004+08:00

ok. i m like gone for too long since thailand.
pardon me. too many things fell in and i got too tired to do the net.
went for camp, training straight after.

anyways,
:)i totally love the place. Ah!the ppl, the culture, the clubs, the food;
im going to learn thai, i made thai friends and i soo wanna go back.
the girls are so nice, and they guys look malaysianly-bengy, the "ladyboys"(the way they call it) are soooo funny! (in the good way of cos)
so prolly july? fishe's planning a hol den & we have yet decided.
so the savings has begun.
the more i save the further i get to go.i hope hah.

jasjie's back frm the states for a wk or so,
havent seen her for sooo long. misses.
hope i rrly get to go in dec man.
but 1 mth seems too little.
well,

im starting work at AwChoc soon,
they offered a post as retailmger:)
but mom's rrly persistent bout uni and i do agree, so.
part-time first.
so besides teaching piano and awchoc, and the boy,
im like rrly free so ask me out. HEEX

- //i've been eating too much!
& sleep'g alot! my mom says im fat!
boohooo!!! im gg jogg'g later! hmmph.

i weeli weeli excited!

2008-05-07T16:48:00.003+08:00

ohboy!
im sosososovery excited.
:):):):):):)
after the very long wait,
its bangkok with the boys!
uncle,hock,fishe-my bodyguards.
and i've successfully brainwashed hock to address me as the Princess.
we even practised the formations,
serious.
hohoho!
i'm bringing very little clothes,
alot of undies.
but its the moisturizers, sunblock, tolietries, this spray that spray
that piled up to 3bags. :/ cosmetics!

WhalA! we're goanna club like, err. everyday i think.
my uncle. hai.
hock who needs many gfs,
well. :)) shop&eat&shop&eat.

:(

2008-04-28T09:54:00.003+08:00

ystd night, went to celebrate khim's bday with the prisch loves,
he ordered 20 chicken wings; and at 85, you get 40 chicken parts.
whoolaaa.. i don't think i'll eat another wing in a mth.
hah.

-myeyesarepuffed,mymooddampen,ineedtorelieve

goodthing, im meeting ningy to do nails.

if only i chld turn back time

2008-04-23T18:15:00.003+08:00

Just feeling very emo all of a sudden.
deleted many posts off blogger.
soo many things in life i have regretted,
soo many i wished would have never happened.
still, there's no eraser to this life.
& all i can only hope is to make the best out of what's left.
and be glad for those
i shld be appreciative for.

Im happy now,
& i hope this time things wld turn out diff.
:)
thanku fishe for giving me so much love.
muahhs.

- &japanese silent library is freaking funny!!!! HAHAHHA

Clubcrawl08

2008-04-23T15:03:00.008+08:00

firstday;
took some pictures but it was all on denise's cam.
these are those i have on my faithful phone,

khimy, my budd from prisch.
veronie, mysissy from highsch

2ndday;
i brought my own digi.
=) james, rene, denise, me.
of cos, i had to pose with those wildly dressed!

aHH ttaAaahh~
& i joined kickboxing. lol

beware boyfriend!
im trained now~

wensheng&m3

haha, i her him/her/hishe..err.
That's Sue ladies and gentlemen.
frm stagearts,
the sexyback roman princess (fallen)

nypcrew with jeremy&thunderboy from 91.3fm

gogoranger&thescaryclown

yeps, the kendoboy again;

&the boys who paid a visit.

2008-04-17T23:36:00.001+08:00

first day of Clubcrawl,
tiring.
fb was so adorable.
cam-whored with veronie.
shall load tml.
zZzz.

I'm blessed with many.

2008-04-17T00:25:00.003+08:00

well. updates :)

i've got this really adorable maltese if u guys dunno;
& my favourite chocolate is maltesers (no link but heck!)

she's fluffy, active, so heart-warming, cute&....

big attitude problem! threatens to pee when u lock her in the balcony.
Too bad, her owner MOI has big attitude problem too. ;)

Tah Dah!

thats Girl bald. Cos she's too naughty! Jie says she's ugly but what to do, get herself soiled playing with pee. Orh Bi Good!
But i like her better like that hahaha..

Well today's baby's bday but his on duty.
Gave him an early birthday "celebration",
got him a pedal.
-.- I totally know no nuts bout pedal stuffs.
but it was fun getting laughed at trying to figure what to buy haha.

When he took this picture, auntie was like; Aiyo AhGirl! Why you look sillysilly(sa-sa) one?

so i took a picture of her son and show her; (whose the real sa-sa one?? heex)
& she went, Aiyo! ErXi ah! (Son ah!) Why your eyes so small mouth open so big?
AHAHHAH!!! i so love this boy of mine. cranky, but yeah. So so so so much more den just sweet.

see- him readin my part2pressie. :) hearts
//he makes me so happie.

Am so looking forward for tml's NypClubcrawl08.

Drop by the sportshall, many interesting events lined up.=)
Hope it'll be all fun! yeeppies

mylittlething

2008-04-08T22:01:00.004+08:00

today baby brought me home to see his mom.
as his gf.
it was diff from the mahjiong session or chinesnewyr;
:)
she's sweet larr..
but i did felt a lil interrogated.
hahha.
&he had to keep taking very close pics
of my big fat face. goosshh.

-timeflieswhenhe'sard

met up with char :)

2008-04-07T21:28:00.007+08:00

Last sat night, i met up with char for a time of hoegaarden at HotelRendevous.
Great place. Ahh :)
When you put us 2 together, many crappy pics is what u'll get.
Missed her much from sec.
sharmi, &kayling was sweet!

=)hoe makes me very happy
well, char wants it to be an attitude diva photo,

but it turned out urber fierce

that's more like US!

that lovebird that made me soo irritated.
so mushy;
&i had to videocall fishe lol.
we tried to take like a few pics but well, all didnt catch the 3 of us.
so since sharmie was the most unimpt one, :)

really, don't play jenga when u have beer.
-.- the pieces fell into the pint.
& chess becomes supersuper borrinngg
so i tried domino with the blocks instead.

very yummy

very gross.
kayling,char,moi
haha. sharmie and char introduced me their fav past time.
i was soooo serious and they laughed like duno wat -.- watever
but arcade-ing was sooo fun! huhuu

lovebitachingwithutotaly!

u'll learn to make the best out of the little time you have:)

2008-04-07T20:56:00.008+08:00

man. i'm feeling sick -.-
runny nose, feverish and sorethroat.
God pls take it all away.

Today, i went for breakfast w baby
before gg to EastCoastPark for skating session.
Since i'm supposed to work out,
we did like sit-ups, crunches, scissorskick, bridge&pushups.
Of cos, every 10 i did i made him do 30. hegotallsowhiny ;p
Bad choice. After all that torment, we had much difficulty traveling back to the car.
But haha! i'm sure i've lost weight and baby built much muscles.
& we had fun torturing each other haha!

i tot he posed like a mermaid;
:) my fish wat!

Then we went to the famous BigPrawnMee at eastcoastrd.
The price hiked eh. hmmms. But it was still pretty gd.
So after which, i went back to sleep.
Been sleeping so much, oh well.

So today, it was my first lesson with my adultbeg student.
Good start i should say. :)
Had fun and am getting the hang of it.
She's a sweet lady. MARRIED. awww...

I told baby i'll marry him if he acquires the following skills;
wash the dishes,cook 3 meals a day, clean the floor, wash the curtains, clean the ceiling, massage me, change the light bulbs, terminate the bugs, wash the clothes, hang and iron them, & manymany more of cos; which i'll update along the way! huhuuhuhu.

-gdnews:
i worked out, dvpd the pics, been to pop, took passport pics;
but i have yet packed anything :((
&i bought a new pair of betula! happie.

Stop Procrastination!

2008-04-05T00:44:00.004+08:00

ok. I shld stop procrastinating.

So i've decided i'll list down what i need to do and do it!

tml;

1. Pack my wardrobe

2. Pack the shoe cabinet

3. Take passport photo

4. Send photos to be devpd

if i have enough time,

5. Visit pop

6. Jog in the mrn

//imissmybaby

&that's mom, tying girl's ears into a knot.
lol

2008-04-04T12:30:00.001+08:00

change of template.
a new mood :)

* hoegaarden, my new fav beer.

//i was smiling sooo happily behind the pint.

@-/------

2008-03-25T09:55:00.002+08:00

work's been gd :)

1st day;
did some admin, customer data.
went for lunch.
go home sleep.
come back to work;
den count money.

2nd day;
will only get better.
answer phone calls.
watch the pigeons.
boss's bringing me out for BIGPrawn mee.
& i'm getting a printer.
called yang in cheena,
aiyo.. xiang si ta le lar~
catching shutter with sissy tonight.

-but work's v political. lol

//baby's sick :'(

too much sleep does you no gd.

2008-03-20T16:43:00.003+08:00

result's out. finally~
Grats to all who've graduated! =)

ystd, i slept like the whole day literally.
woke up at 3pm, went back to sleep at 5pm.
woke up again at 11pm, slept again at 5am.
today i woke up at 1pm. -.-
the sickening flubugs giving me big time.

anyways,
i missed sch, so i decided to come back
& to print some stuffs. hah
it's weird.
i'm sitt'g here in the freeaccess,
its 4.50 and since 3.20, i'm the only one here.
a couple of cleaners came several times,
to empty the bins only realising there's nothing it in
& they seem surprised to see me ard.
guess its the hols thing,
fishe was sayi'g why the sch looks so empty.
argh.

i came to print stuffs for uni, transcripts and all,
shunbian renew my pdl at ssdc, walk ard before the boy comes over aft meeting.
the army duty thingy really sucks.
goodness, wonder how jass's coping man.
i'm like whining almost everyday.
start'g work on mon, hope all goes well.
PLS! let me be punctual.
and let the people be really nice, genuinely.

- Thank God, for Easter.!

are we pigs or are we pigs? ;p

2008-03-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

today, finally after months so pursuit,
me and fishe made it to ecp to jog.
CLAPCLAP.
please. it wasnt easy.
there was rain. arh har! which unmotivates,
den there was the lagoon which tempts.
& while we were wearing our shoes,
we cuddled and nearly submitted to our lazybones.
wats' new.
& i ran until i saw santa clause;
life one. topless. whooo =)

while my darling is soundly asleep,
i made a lil reflection of my days spent aft exams.
which we've talked abt and both agrees..

Well exam period was hectic,
hmm. alright. not very hectic but it was supposed to be.
watever. =\
k. after that i had a very fulfilling camp,
met some nice ppl.
den so many things i said i wanted to accomplise.
driving, job, do my nails, send girl for grooming, dance etc.

den after.
it was all ;
- eat&sleep&eat&sleep&ofcositjustrepeats. for a whole wk.
-.-but im not complain'g, infact im enjoying all of it.
heex. am not looking for a job eagerly but i know i need to,
to preoccupy myself. it just feels weird doing nothing.

//some things my bf's been telling me over the wk:

Tagline No. 3
"you wanna eat anything? =D * with that lovely eyes"

Tagline No. 2
"darl'g so what are we going to go now? *when we are already on the road"

Tagline No. 1
"wahh darl'g, its so comfortable hugging you like this.... ahhh. zZZzzz *snores"
\\everytime , anywhere. & his 5mins will always lead to 10, den hrs of coma.

=) that's the silly boy;
who just woke up to ask if i wanna eat, & fell straight back to sleep.
& up again saying his not sleeping alr, but still he fell back to lalaland.
haha. loves

fooooodd..

2008-03-13T16:41:00.005+08:00

recommending this realy gd pasta place =)
Spagedies @ Marina2

well. i missed sch,
so i asked fishe to bring me for prata.
The Prata Place from North Canteen;
crispy egg prata :D

still, our sch's better.

-went club'g w ning, fish, yang.
=] misses//

:)

2008-03-11T23:57:00.006+08:00

3rd - 5th mar.

pulau ubin

sec1 camp;

first time being camp instructor was.

extremely challenging, physically strainning, mentally tormenting.

but fun =)

with my dearest peeps.

jas the shortie old lady, leong the bootcamp instr, me of cos-the very nice one.

partof my dwarfs ;)

& the kids arh!! pampered.
thats their rooms.

with outdoor bamboo shower. fck right

monsters

supertired.

lesson learnt;
be mentally prepared for rotten feets,
& to spend all ur pay for a new shoe
which got ripped off.

to yy: -.- its not my fault. grrr! stupid system.

2008-03-10T02:01:00.004+08:00

damn.
i wanna blog but blogger cant post my pics.
after 4tries. im pissed.
shall shit instead.

-while shitting,

truly, it feels weird to not go to sch.
or to even think that i've left that phase.
i guess i did well for my last semester,
lived life the way i shld have had long before;
do what i want and not do what i dont.

i guess many faced,
but i told myself, some ppl deserve the effort
and many just had to be fked off.
=)
i thank yuyang, nigel. for being the best budds.
for crapping, crying, & sharing w me their wet dreams.
love the boys, & jas. duhh!!

there are many others,
whom i always wanted to establish gd friendships with.
many worth, and i'm just waiting for the right time.

//i spent postsch,
camping, shopping, eating, loving

weeppieee!~

2008-03-04T22:14:00.001+08:00

whooho!
=)

-I've unofficially graduated.
muaahs.
thank God!

SHOPPING!~

2008-02-29T23:47:00.005+08:00

well. im not gg to study yet, shall post some pics;
to reminisce on the good times.

SHOPPING before papers =)

1st time at newyorknewyork;

my boy's not too happy bout the size-difference,

heehee..
i've got a furry finger and a bushy fist ;)
but fishe's got mouldy moust. ee!

&this shopping with my babe aft imc.

it is my blister, not the braladdy u shld be looking at! @_@

haha. we got the same shorts.

diff size, diff color.

STILL i'm taller.

and she's got bigger boobs. watever!

mygirl mugging with mmi.

ahh! still not gg to mug YET.
/latter

arghs.

2008-02-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

I miss my baby
:\

1 down, 2 to go.
goodness;
it'll be too soon when we leave sch.

=)

2008-02-23T20:32:00.009+08:00

ah!.
=) before exams. we clubbed to release stress.
heehee.
&when im supposed to be studying,
im watchin naruto, blogging and eating.
2.15am
laugh'g at the photos i see many times>

-myboy, i love.

see why i make gd friends with yang, we're both sick.

just that his gay & i'm straight
i love ahpeg!

time with fishe;)
he makes me very happy

1.2.
3.
4.

5. 6.
7.
8.

hearts//
Fishie, ahHock, JJ

albinei&spanse-

the lovebirds
we party people~ ;p

my baby whom i adore to torment in the gentle sick way.
-tickle, nosepoke, armpit attack, twitch, milk, bite.
GRRRR

& thanku for allowing me to. :)

cny.

2008-02-21T16:47:00.002+08:00

still, many interesting pics to share. like weird looking plants.
but becos, i dont have them, i'll just upload wat i have. hmmmsss....

many greens, many strawberrys.
manymany. scary.

*haha. sooo cuuttee... & i don't know whose the other guy in the picture.

but well, there's this lil girl who was saying.

"daddy daddy! her bread is BURNT!"

-.- watever...

purple cabbage & many stuubaariis!

lateupload (19thBday)

2008-02-21T16:30:00.004+08:00

well. pictures have been arriving very late. so... =)

i shall jst upload.

my 19th berthdai.

hearts the sisters.

&
for my 19th birthday,

i wished...

for a new boyfriend.

;)

da jie had to persuade that sillyboy to kiss me.
-.- too shy..
oh pls~ haha

huhu//

blurrppps.....

2008-02-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

ps. i love u was amazing.
must watch.
heart breaking, emotional trauma, hope&sweetness of love.
its the kind of movie;
you watch and aw, and you know you love the special one more.
& im so going to read the book.
they sld pay me for advertising.
=)

the other gd show; CJ7.
more then just a stupid comedy.

GIRL A: "ehs, i went to catch a horror flick and all the girls were screaming like crazy!,"
GIRL B: "that's bcos all the guys had their eyes covered."
;)

loves.

2008-02-14T15:05:00.003+08:00

Its Valentine's! :)

There's soooo many things i wanna write abt.
but things had been crazily hectic ever since cny.
projs just kept piling and its just that we get the break we deserve.
5 down. 1 last to go!
photos from malaysia. princess growing bigger and bigger. Girl2 sooo pretty.
fishe so sweet. hol plans. me putting on weight. arh. tml i shall~

This yr, i havent been to excited about the Vday.
But i got to realise, i shld just enjoy myself. & not think too much abt anything else.

[LOVE]
yang&nigel :) Happy Valentine's!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR

2008-02-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

GONGXIFACAI!!

win more money =)
take care. eat pork. drink liang tei.

love//.

its gd to be kids. u do bad things and not get slaughtered.

2008-02-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

Ignorance, bliss or blight?
I tot this was hiliarious and i so need to share.

I took a bus from my place to serangoon train station on sat and as i passed PLMGS, there were many many students. so there was this really cute little her called Belinda sitting in front of me with her maid beside her. & she has this friend Sarah who went to the back to sit with the mom. I think they are like pri 3 or so. cute lil girls. but Sarah started to get really irritating. For like non-stop throughout the whole journey she had to shout, " BELINDA! WHERE ARE U BELINDA! I CANT SEE U!!". And after like 5mins, belinda went, "I'M HERE! SARAH I'M HERE!!!" but as the bus was super crowded, there was basically nothing they can do but shout across. When Sarah called out for Belinda again, "BELINDA WHERE ARE YOU??". Belinda replied, "I'M HERE! I SEATING BESIDE A OLD WOMAN!" *stunned.

The best part was, the old woman turned to belinda and said, " NOT OLD WOMAN. OLDER PERSON!" -.- she was obviously a old hag in child's eyes. 40plus lar. k lar. not too old. haha classic.

-everytime some kid calls me auntie, i realise i never fail to say, JIEJIE! not aunty! lol

i love my dog.
she's white and fluffy and all so cute.
But sometimes, u just want to curry her!

that's girl threatening me.
It's either i let her out/she's goanna pee in front of me.
I stared at her and she glared at me with her leg raised for like 20s.
-.- monstress....

hurrhurrrrr~ things i do in sch

2008-01-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

i asked my darling fishe if he would still love me if i looked like this.

all he did was. turn away~

cyclops VS psychotic geek

prrrrr~

.
.
.

.
.

HOLD AND BEHOLD....

YY~ the truly fallen one.

-faints;)

Nyp Open Hse 2008

2008-01-30T19:54:00.000+08:00

Okay!!

update update =)

first up; OpenHouse2008

a whole bunch of crazy ppl ;)

teng chung dropped her. -.- lol

it's nice to meet fun & enthu ppl.

emcee-ing was a fabulous experience

=)

2008-01-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

man.
i've got a gr8t timetable i must say.
and time has been flying so quickly with a weds off.
=) happy.
but it shivers to know that im graduating wee too soon to realise.

arrghh. havent been uploading pics simply cos im too lazy to find my hp cable.
missing. again...
must upload all the hilarious pics ;)

JASMINE u know i sooo love u.
though chunxi's stronger, manda's here too! &fishe.
lovelovelove.

huhney, love me.
i only gotten u ur shoe.
and not mind.
ass. stop just talking to jeff.
:(

//fishe's showing the protective bf backside.
hmms. but i like. hahahhaa
watever~ piangs

-today my fav song is still, tear drops on my gewtar =)

my friends' got china breath.

2008-01-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

ah. got a lil red from the sun above bedok jetty.
havent skated for a long time with ming, flab, aud, yao, jason.
=) still as funny.
met new ppl today.
Vion, so funny. think we'll make a circus. kenny the bandana boy, danny the hong, circuit.
nice ppl.

AND STUPID FLAB, THOUGH I LOVE U HUHNEY BUT...., AND ASS MING!!
WHAT'S WITH TRYING SO HARD TO RE-EMPHASIZE AND TO CONVINCE YOUR NEW CHINA FRIENDS THAT AMANDA IS VERY FAT? IDIOT!!!!!!!!! *&#($*$^!%$87*S^%$!*%
upset u know. first time u meet someone and they tell u. NO WAT, not very fat mar...
-.-
piangs.
though u ppl bought me gifts from cheenaland.
still.... :(whines.

*missed u ppl much. finally back.

//sunday night. slept too much. tried to start revising for ib & imc proj.
fishe's a sweetheart. came over to just stone and accompany me.
=) & trying to be really nice with mom.
love.

-many many pics to upload.

2008-01-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

fk. left my mp3 in school.
=(

damn.

zen neon. 6gb. purple.
17th bdae pressie frm sissies.
sryyyy~

tired.

2008-01-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

failed tp:(
boohoo..

darling brought me to awchoc.
whoohoo!

=)
doing ps.
ahh! excited bout tml.
hope it'll be fun~
ehhs!

lovelove.

i'mtired.i need redbull.
many many.

updownleftright.

2008-01-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

been reading abt uni.
can't decide what to do. :(
need to talk to manyppl.
need to do very well this sem.

its driving exam tml.
//shivers
-jie tells me to wear geekishly;
tees, jeans, shoes, glasses.
-nigel reminds me to pretend
-fishe prays i don't drive like him

mom wants to do smt to myroom.
changed the aircon& she's goanna
paint it her way.
ahh. :) i just hope i'll get
new study&cardboards.
i was gd. i tried clear'g the mess.

participat'g in nyp open house.
nervous. Pray pray pray.
(= hope it'll be most fun*
ThankGodfortheopportunity.
do come! 10-12jan, 10-6pm.

//sakae-ing with ningy&fish in a bit.
meiqi darling! sryyy for being super late.
huhney coming back from cheena :)

mychildhoodloves

2008-01-08T18:54:00.000+08:00

lunch with the qis&hao;
the childhood friends - ppl i know with all of my life.

ah hao's a heppie man =)

//loves.- celebration of our 19yrs of friendship and manymanymore to come.
i shld so dig out the pic we took when we were 12.
qiqi with her superduper curlie very short hair, you with as big boobs just kiddisher , hao w/o the muscles, me with 2ponytail and all of us were in very geekyglasses. =)

=)

2008-01-06T18:32:00.000+08:00

manymanypics to upload,
manymanythings to say,
wannado manymanythings.

lovemyfriends,
miss my sisters,
intofish.

//stoppedtalkingtodadd

am reading this bk titled,
"The Five Love Languages" by Gary Chapman.
Good book that gives an insight to why relationships fails because the spouse speaks of different love languages, and it is essential to learn to speak each others' to fill his/her love tank.
Very easy to read, very interesting to the many obvious things that we just fail to notice.

Birthday meetups.

2007-12-28T08:52:00.001+08:00

drinking with sissies =)

ben: "wha! this one drink can get high man." lol

------------ --------/---@ -------

met up Pegdear finally!

& she had to babysit shan shan when meeting me for bday.

but she's cute lar. =)

she calls me piao liang jie jie. HAHA

love u darling =) & thanks for the book.

there was this grp taking pics frm the reflection.

lol if only they knew i saw all their funny poses.

( ;) ( ;) ( ;) ( ;) ( ;) ( ;) ( ;) ( ;) ( ;)

Celebration with my prisch friends :))

-.- puked and felt like fck but its 730am and im bright awake blogging already..

greeee....

so many years of friendship & growing;

thanks feng, gor, ade, yuan, dan, khim, dennis, toon.

muahhhss!!!!!

//To ming: Thanks for calling from BeiJing. Super sweet lar! =) & i got to talk to darling huhney and flabby! See u soon lar! Misss u ppl!

Christmas Dinner =)nin

2007-12-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

Christmas Dinner @ ning's;
+the true meaning of Christmas,
the Lord's Love for everyone of us+

:)

sumptious!~ ning,long,me prepared the food!
and it was the most warming dinner.. =)

ben's share of brownie, full of fudge and choco chis!
tian shi ni arh!!!!! heehee

the thing abt ur loved ones.
i baked the brownie that was superduper hard.
that they had to whack it like bricks
yet they still gave me soo much praise even though jl said it wld carry off well as cookie.
-.-
love u all..... heex

thats my godma!

the boys with their hellokitty cups.

uncle kept feeding me wine. -.- and i was all red already~

lol this is how they look when u feed them too much!

myboy :)

LOVE.

theboy doing the tigger thingy.
dunno why but his so fascinated bout tigger getting high on marijuana.
=) & the rest of us just stoned and try to laugh.

aft food was getting all high and dirty with drinking games at long's.

MAN!! i can't imagine we actually did all those sick stuffs.

and my boy -.- mannn....~ still cant get the disturbing scenes out of my head. LOL

HAHAHHAHAHAA

& the thing is. we laughed soo hard we didnt even need the dose of alcohol to get crazy.

//thank you all for the joy and love.

so much fun and warmth. muahhhss!!~

ning: "pink is the next black!" ?

2007-12-26T12:35:00.000+08:00

hanging out at ningg's. =)

cam-whoring's essential of cos!

-my 2meimeis. <3

cheesy,sassy,naughty,cranky,lovely,veryplayful us (;

some poise they made me do..

it was supposed to be sexxy -.-

LOVE;

long,ningg,fish,mei =)

//Alvin&thechipmunks was nuttily gd! ;)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!~

2007-12-24T18:43:00.002+08:00

MY LOVES, <3

Jinglebell! JingleBELL! Jingle.. BURRPPPP!!!!!

=)
To all. Have a very very blessed Christmas,
the special season where only joy and laughter fills the air.

Spend it with ur loved ones,
& make ur love known to them.

LOVE,
ah man!~

prRrrr~

2007-12-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

ahhs. i miss fishball...

*snuggs
:( whines....

&i so love ningy and long.
benjie too!

thank you wilbro for the pressie.

muaahhss!~
jas big booties! ask me out.
join weird competitions and laugh our arshs off.

//happy birthday mummy =)

2007-12-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

mosie with the sister =)

wilbro xiao MI MI. d )

emo;

that straining smile

-.- Fk. i got slammed while trying to pose for a pic.

sissssyyyyyy~

its hols ;)

2007-12-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

Everybody, say GUUU~~~ ;p

eh they were in sch for some food show

bleahsS!!!~`

GRRR!!!

ahaha joyce's shoes got swapped

&yang LICKED the dog!!! Fkg disgusting~

*grossed

prrrrr~~

2007-12-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

Shopping with ningy at Hagi Land ;)

& the cat that follwed us ard~

*tired///

wooo... lovely!~

2007-12-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

Friday; 07Dec07
Stayover @ myplace

Well, Sat was Dinner at my place.

I made minced meat porridge for my loveds,

though i burnt the woke and it was chao da,

still they finished everything =DD

&its always a blessing to cook for them.

hahah the boys caught in candid;

too shock to pose nicely

AH! He was using girl2 as a MOP!

& he still tries to deny. Pretend only!~

After dinner and the boys dilly-dally over some japanese video,

we left for Lim Chu Kang to prawn. Hehs!

excited.

Got lost, and aft an hr of trying to read the map and figure the exit and road, to find out that the tupid prawning place closed down. FK!

So we went to some fishing place at LakeSide, Duh~ overly crowded.

Diaoo.... fine. Went to bowl at Marina South instead. Fun =))

Besides the part when ningy had to make out with long in the car -.-

-went home for movs.

Rise of the Blood Hunter; naked Lucy

HOTHOTHOT!

other den that, ewwww~

loves.

poor long was too tired

prrrr~

he's fishball=)

wuuu~ seexxayyy!

///tired faces, but we had fun stoning. hhaha

My sisters are the best!

2007-12-07T18:16:00.001+08:00

I love my sisters.
They have never failed to make me feel so blessed and love.

OF cos, that is not because u girls bought me tiff&co.
;)
I thank God for these wonderful angels that have always been there for me.
And i just wan to stay the baby sister always~

every loved woman deserve something from the lil green box. ;)

touched*

everytime i receive smt frm states,

i look at the delivery charges. Uh!

To eliminate these charges, i shld fly over & collect all at one shot!

teehee.

showcasing, my 1st ever tiff-owned bracelet =)

The angels of my life.

I LOVE U BOTH!!!!!!!!! SOOO MUCH!

I love my family

2007-12-07T17:50:00.000+08:00

Sun; 2Dec

Andy's 21st Birthday Party

haha. soo cute ehs.

We've got the babelicious genes from mom.

;)height's from dad.

Me Mummy DaJie

Love them soo much!

showcasing jie's rings.

& she had to go, not expensive lar.

blah blah blah.... =)

So i had to pretend it got stuck and steal it ahha;

the thing about the youngest, u'll never get rejected

my yoyo uncle

Girl2

I love her. Alot :)

misses.

its was alot of CRm with the relatives.

good food.

catch'g up & laughing away.

enjoying their compliments of me losing weight

eh! haha.

& the aunties who needs to go discussing about sex, dick sizes, blahs -.-

jie just laughed non-stop while my jaws just dropped.

loved.

2007-12-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

Sat; 1Dec07

mylove.

ahhs! my darlings being super retro;

My Christmas Story.

Later at night, it was drinking at jl's.

Its the sisters dressed in bf's;
during the silly things as usual =)

the lovebirds,

my loves <3

- Some people, you just know you could never do without.

*the special night i found my special one.

crazy time of the year

2007-12-06T01:53:00.001+08:00

loves.
its projects bombarding period.

stressed.
& im having alot of fun.
=)
Misses.

Many many updates soon!~

*blush

2007-12-03T14:02:00.001+08:00

i'm smiling so hard, i can't close my mouth =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

*duh! i over the clouds.

NA NA NA NA NA

2007-11-30T15:15:00.000+08:00

Weds;

Pizzahut, 30days of night, pool;)

bro&i feeding on raw meat.

as if,
&wil has a very big mouth~

i missed u so. :)

exploring my talent;

:)smiles

beware;
neither glam nor artistic

the gory-yet cute sisters. ahh!

love them both

=) Good to have the team back.

A fun time trying to not hurt the pocket,
stare at the croach & fool ard sillilily.

*giggles

2007-11-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

oh! man..
monday & tues.
stay home.
im bored.
=( super nua now.

sleep. eat. tv. lappe. facial. pills
haiii.

it's scary how i chld watch tv for 8 hrs straight,
listen to the same song over & over,
eat fish porridge for lunch and dinner.

//i want to be loved too.
- being alone, isnt being lonely.

;)

2007-11-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

Fri;

met ningy for shopping & food,

after which was Dxo ;)

&changi airport.

doing the sisters' thing at the toilet

Sinful indulgence.

we'll i heard before;
ppl with big boobs so big they would rest their boobies on the table while having dinner.
obviously, im trying very hard. lols

my all time fav, zha jiang mian :)

she looks exactly like my wapped-face. ;G
*giggles

:)

met xinhuan @ cine.

At DXO;

we drank so much that we couldnt take pictures properly.

our signatures~

**
After clubbing, it was picking her bf up at the airport.
-.- man i was dropped tired.
// though jl slimmed down after aussie,
his got a bigger head now! haha

i dunno whats with the "meeting point".
heck :) we were the main focus.

This the season to be jolly.
Sha la la la la~ la la la la.
dunno why, im gg to the airport 3 times this wkend.**

friends; =)

2007-11-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

Sunday; 25nov

The darlings are gone to mainland.

I'm starting to miss them already.

I'm really not the kind who could always see ppl off at the airport.

It's draining to see ppl leave, ppl who u spent so much time being bonded with,
but i know that time would only make us stronger and closer.

love u all much.

misses =)

i love her too much.<3

*ming, fab, jy, jim, eugene, bei,

be well. :)

After the airport, i went to sentosa with the SG9 ppl.

as usually, i feel sooo mummy-ish & seriously, i love being with them.

though i had to try soo hard to act cute and be young. heex

the very nice boys;

*sharma, jeremy, shaun, chuan

im the mummy :)
and they are my most favourite children

jeremy was dodging the cam, literally....

me & JoJo!!

she's got very straight teeth!!!

xian mu*

i had a great time.

sunbathing, & revitalising.

Sry ppl, i fell asleep.

hahaha. 1hr of sleep was too lil.

chuan&jo, let's go sing another day lar..

-.- lost my melodious voice,

got a swollen tonsil.

muaahhhs!!!~

*3days mc.

i'll sleep, read, blog, eat lil.

We've got a very bad attitude!

2007-11-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

Sat Party Night

*weewweeett!

gayboys;

before i even partied,
i had to fall flat on my face.
of cos, with elegance & poise!
fug.
STOP LAUGHING. ASS
:(

this is the known, manda look!

Party people!~

the band.

*sassy~

;) part time bf
* my daahhliinnnggg josh, im sry but height does matter.
LOL SHORT U!

ahhhh.. boobieess~

ahxiao & skinnybao.

me&wen,
nigel trying desperately to get into the pic

one of the things crazy ppl do.
*carry each other~

*winks
call me MRS.MUSCLES

gorgeous

AWWWWW~

EWWWW~

OUCH!

yes we were tipsy even before we clubbed;
-.- unglam pictures

dunno why, but it looks weird.
obscenity

nigel made me do that! hhaha

poor boy didnt dare to open his eyes.
OPPS!

*pls. i wore shorts. DUH!~
&josh got sooo disappointed

look how happy nig was =D

us.

&man, whats with the camera man.

darling ser helped me massage my feet.
though she was soo tired she fell asleep halfway
thankeuu.
muaahhss!!~

ladies&boys,
i had a crazy night ;)

the animals within got released.

grrrr~

again! again! *

Huhney =)

2007-11-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

weds; 21nov07

Enchanted;)

awww... for a very long time, i havent felt sooo loved.

= ) blah blah blah. Girls just love fantasies.

the movie is light-hearted, and very very romantic.

*butts up

**********************

Dearest Huhney,

I'm already missing u. 2 mths, i'll loss alot of weight and get my belly pierced. hehs.

Please take real good care, have alot of fun. Heck the bitches, screw the jerks. Weiming is liable of ur safety, he promised. :) Make alot of cheena friends and pls, do not get a china bf -.-

but i know u've got better taste. plsplspls call me often and spend alot of time webcaming me.

aahhhh!!!!!! *dreads.

(; ) maybe u can sponsor me a flight ticket to pay u a visit over my christmas break.

*whine whine whine whine whine....

i miss u sooo.. Take great care and see u back. Put on some weight heex.

U'll get very rosy cheeks with the cold but buy vicks k, for flu. Don't fall sick ehs. arrghhsss....

muuuaahhhsss.

Love much,

dahhlinngg

************************

Besties;

Trying to feel like princesses

Rule no 1 to being a princess: Pose with broken arms.

Like u said, its difficult to find gr8t friends who is there to hold u & care.

Thank u for being there :)

ahhh... Wilbro's supposed to be the chipmunk!

&he insisted that if weiming was there, he whld fit the chipmunk pose well. ;p

**I'll find that Prince charming someday.

loves.

we're soo attached.

& we're the chawa-addicts

early x'mas mood; huhney's spending the christmas in mainland :(

Thank you the most handsome & faithful PEASANT. heehee

Things to do at school

2007-11-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

Drool, have fun, take weird pictures

:):) & YY's yellow panties! HAHA!

when i wear nigel's & he wears mine

3 musketeers

bored...

Nigel getting into the Christmas mood;

steamed hat & girlie boots :3

he even tried fitting in sharon's christmas dress.

=D

2007-11-20T19:31:00.000+08:00

傻孩子

看着你无神的表情

猜不透这是你的心

我一直冷静却还是走不出这命运很苦泣

我开始失去了勇气而你却还像在游戏

我假装清醒看清你的心终于我选择了离去

你像个孩子一样的被我看穿

在你面前我试着隐埋

所有过去全都变成伤害

我像个傻子一样被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担

到了最后我选择分开

我开始失去了勇气而你却还像在游戏

我假装清醒看清你的心终于我选择离去

你像个孩子一样的被我看穿

在你面前我试着隐埋

所有过去全都变成伤害

我像个傻子一样被你出卖

一字一句都要我承担

到了最后我选择走开

你像个孩子一样的被我看穿

在你面前我试着隐埋

所有过去全都变成伤害

我像个傻子一样的被你出卖

一字一句都要我承担

到了最后我选择分开

Thank God for what is given.

2007-11-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling much happier today.
Thanks to the crap with YY&Nigel.
& im starting to enjoy times at home.
Thanks Serdear for coming so early just to have dinner and spending time with me.
;) loves

Realised;
I'm capable of watching the tv for hours.
Thank mom for cable Tv.
I can do much on the lappie.
I love being on the piano,
playing my happiness on the keys.
Thanks sis for being there,
offering to lend me ur brandeds.
though i seldom see u.
Now, i get to spend so much more time on my keys,
with my girl and do what i like to.

It's really not about what others think,
but what you decide to feel for urself.

i'm thinking bout the loveys whose leaving for china this wkend.

Time do past very fast.

Time heal, matures, bonds ppl.

Have fun ppl, be well.

Grow much, learn much, see alot.

I'm starting to so miss;

my huhney, ming

AHHHH!!!!!! sob......

dread to let u ppl go but pls remember to buy me

christmas pressie, & birthday pressie & soveneir! MUACKKKS!!~ *winks

be nice, be gd to myself. =)

2007-11-19T18:41:00.000+08:00

ppl i give many thanks to brighten my life =)

ah bao & me. lols

the bra-der

darrliinggirlfriends

dig our fking big attitute!

notice my bloodshot eyes

bet he was staring at moi-ass.

thank u ppl, for being there.
& pegdear too of cos.
all for teaching me how to swim~
for being there.
=) loves

we're deprived of our childhood.

2007-11-18T18:48:00.000+08:00

Saturday;

17nov07

when u're low,
all u ask for is ppl to get HIGH with u!

& wat beats partying at Toys'rus ;)

881;

the rambutan sistas~

ka wa yi snow white VS sexy hua mu lan

Buy me a teddy for my birthday!!!! heex

*winks

;) wilbro! fossil bag. erm herm!! hhahah

woo~ tangoo!

yeeks! hairy transformers

this ah boy ah, bo zheng hu (no government; no rules)
thus we had to kick him off the road. hiaks

& own it!!!

demure seh~ -.-
heeeheee

my bro cant decide with to buy...
& after many moments,

he realised,
pink was his colour afterall!

They had a Girls' Favourites Corner,
& wil was the specail guest doing his thing with his fav PINK hula~

showcasing his fav doll ;)

lols dont kill me!

we're the fairies wanna be

im learning how to swim

2007-11-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

i've pack my bags,
i'm ready to go.
=)

i needed to burst out in tears,
i needed to get that tight slap of rejection.
And now i'm smiling,
i've let all emotions out.
No more supressions,
No more confusions.
I'm moving on..

I'll learnt to swim,
i don't need a raft.
My friends whose always there,
my biggest thanks for catching my back.
It's hard, but i'm too tough to lose.
I will move on.

I've packed all into the box.
Keeping all to the back of myself.
I've painted my nails black,
releasing the party animal.
Monday,
i'll start afresh on the new road.
I'll play alot of piano,
do my work, mug, drive more &
save all the love for my friends&family.

i miss da.

2007-11-15T17:00:00.000+08:00

The Animal Test

saw this on pegdear's blog.
;))

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is that both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

Take yours ;]

i bleed blue.

2007-11-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

i chose my paths.

@->----------

=) he always make me feel petite.

Went singing with ming, drey & fab;

the love birds;

& happy 2nd yr anniv to u 2 =)

ming cams his sorrows away, i sing in my mess while the two just keeps loving.

just feel like wearing u to sleep today.

misses.

私奔到月球

2007-11-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

其实你是个心狠又手辣的小偷
我的心我的呼吸和名字都偷走
你才是绑架我的凶手
机车後座的我吹着风逃离了平庸
这星球天天有五十亿人在错过
多幸运有你一起看星星在争宠
这一刻不再问为什麽
不再去猜测人和人心和心有什麽不同

一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动
当你说太聪明往往还是会寂寞
我笑着倾听孤单终结後的静寞
看月亮像夜空的瞳孔
静静凝视你我和我们闹嚷的星球
靠近你怎麽突然两个人都词穷
让心跳像是野火燎原般的汹涌
这一刻让命运也沉默
让脚尖划过天和天地和地缘分的宇宙

一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动
一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动
一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动

First day of school

2007-11-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

:)
hmms. its the last semester and whoha!
graduation.
im so looking forward.
first day of sch was enriching,
and yang. Thanks so much for sharing.
&its gd to know someone feels the same (:
&watever u do, just be determined eh.
its not going to be easy.
zy too. -.- despite the loads of crap,
u do make some sense.
many nice faces;
misses jas, ser, peitian and many others.
heck those who arent.
i'll make this a fruitful semester,
goanna work real hard and
get my license and play alot of piano.

After sch i went for driving lesson and it was my first time learning how to park.
after sooo sooo long. well...
fun! hahah... didnt knock any pole though *proud!
& i didnt stall.. muahhhahahah.
after which, met ser for shop and food.
haven since her for very long since she left for china.
=) gd to see u back darling.
muaackkkss!

-thanks jim, for the many words of encouragement.

grrrr........ monday blues.

2007-11-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

fri night; had much wine with my pri sch mates.
met gr8t ppl, laughed much, learnt much.
=) that im too anxious and forceful.
sounds so familiar.
and it really sucks big.
Fk!
really, avoiding doesnt make anything work.
duhhh~ obvvioousss...

sat, the second time in my life i got dead drunk.
for the same stupid reason..
damn. puke like shit & got bruises all over.
again.
nearly broke the lg tv.
peg slammed the apple laptop..
heng peg didnt kill me.
and ningy didnt slap me 5hard ones like she did.
sry boys, for the trouble. =/
& after waking up the nxt day, i felt even lousier.
alchohol never help do they?
give me problems only.
And for some reason, no one actually called me the whole night.
In the past when i dont go back, mom would call me like 100 times,
and ystd, none. -.-
man... welcome to adult hood?
ironic.
it didnt felt too gd. And in the noon she smsed me, is the game over?
i called back and surprisingly, she wasnt angry at all.
and she didnt even ask who i was with. meoowww......
love her.

man. i miss u.
& i hate it when u make me feel desperate.
maybe im not.
i wonder why m i doing such crap too.
tell me. what have u been feeding me?
i think this is called; retribution.
fine~ just teach me a smart way to walk out of it.
and not just asking me wtf am i doing such stupid things for.
like i noe?

school starts tml.
awww....
pop my 2nd panadol extra.
need to sleep.
sry for grumbling;
the hangover, menses & thoughts are at fault.
&, i dont think im really enjoying this.
the heels and the dresses,
the smokyeyes and the party ppl.
wat m i trying to dig?
bought boxes frm ikea to pack ur stuffs,
to realise can i bear to keep them away?
straightened my hair for a change of mood,
but im feeling worst. this sucks

-im a happydaddy'sgirlwhosesosohavingfun. & imgoing to stay this way!
when i walk away, that's the end of the game sucker~ lols that felt good.

Party Animals!

2007-11-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

Weds;

6 Nov 07

Party @ St. James Power Station

the music was good, but the crowd was scarily packed;

if only i drove.

but its gd i aint yet.

at least i haven killed any

the bra-dahs!

me&ming.
e very naughty us ;)

i love my huhney;

sry for slapping ur arm that day.
Was just worried =/

Alcohol Rush!~

with the shots, vodka & the flaming lambo;

it made us all cranky...

totally losing it,

& capable of doing things beyond our human strength.

i dont remember pointing the middle finger,

maybe i did. watever~

& thats me and flabby~ opps i meant fab. ;)

bro&yao

well, ming kept asking us to take pics with him drinking..

wats with the fetish?

maybe he just wans to get selected to endorse for some promotions.

*giggles

he likes the short skirts, big boots shots girls
//& one said yao touched her, watever~

tired*

PartyShaLaLa!!~

&we caught them totally making-out!whoohoo!!~

and touching all over; literally

**
Introducing...

MY BAND =)

hmms maybe i'll call us,
piss-makers.

HIAKS!

i'll croak, mark smash the drums, yao slam the guitar,

wil break the keys & ming trying to get us killed with his untrustable management skills.

we are so goanna suck. BUT LIKE I CARE?

=) we are happy cheerie party ppl.

*im walking away!~

p/s:

relax dan, i wont bite.

and if i did for some fking reason that i dont remember,

sry.

let's just get out of tis mess.

friends sounds good,

and really.. it was the alcohol&the rescueing.

PEACE dude!

Too young to not be partying ;)

2007-11-07T10:43:00.001+08:00

Saturday

1 Nov '07;
i had a long list of things to do...
=)

Well, went for dance class.
And it was sooo tiring hahahas.
ningy was late -.-
& all she did was stare and laugh at me. grr

too tired to smile properly~

sprained my feet from dance i think.
haha i think the doc's super furnie lar..
&nice.
cos i went after the clinic closed.
and he kept grumbling that they are closed and that he has rejected the previous client blah blah.. :) i know i m like too hot to resist. huahahhahahaha

Anyways, after dance.
we met up with mark&andy for ThaiEx before catching GamePlanner;
The food was good.
The movie too. =) light-hearted sweet film.

green curry... yummy!

ah peg, me, ningy

After movie, i got home to change and
went to meet my huhney for Fish&Co @ glasshouse.
for her birthday( :)

MuaHaaHHhaahahhss..

superduper filling...
We had one each!: )

Just jk...

loves. =)
sry darling, for the commotion during the dinner.

for not paying full attention to having fun away eating.

but i love u soo. and i wish u the best for your 19th year.

that you'll be so blessed, with knowledge and wisdom,

with $$ & beauty. heex. and with all my love~

*************************

So much for the preparation,
it was a awesome rocking night away at Plush.
i think none of us had partied this hard before

;)

let the pheeektures do the talking

the babes;
& i was the mamasan

trying to slut & seduce;

failed -.-

hahah! but heck!!! we had loads of fun!

we make each other very happieee..=3

The following pictures might disturb;

i think hun was trying to suck my tongue &
ning trying to suffocate me with her bust.

jl; now i know what fun you've been having.

Ahhh~~!!!!

I kissed Trina, Hun, Peg, Ning that night.
*slurps

boys~ envy me.

By 2 i guess all of us was all so tipsy.

by 4, we are about dead!

& i just realised

there were so many of us that night

dead***

Blah blah blah~~

2007-11-07T09:41:00.000+08:00

My feet hurts, went to the chinese physician on mon. But heck. im still gg to club tonight. I desperately need a break, an escape. From i dunno what but im feeling darn low.
It rainned for 2 morns & i took the cabs, im feeling so tight and compressed. I dunno what to say and who to say to; my friends are tired of me grumbling and i'm so sick of myself whining. I'm gg to make myself very cheerrie today; powdered my face, wore slippers to work, took a taxi and i'll blog. I so need to blog about the crazy stuffs i did last wkend :) heex.

Like the email i've read;
Its our choice to make the day, a good one or a bad one =)

See, i've got so many things to be happy about.
- its 2nd last day of ipp
- colleageus bringing me out for "farewell" lunch
- i'll eat icecream later
- i've got a window view of VT
- gg club tonight
- i m pretty. hahs!
- i look damn cool with the bandage on my feet
- cheryl, mum, dad, jies, ning, peg so loves me.

while blogging -.- my tuupidd colleague Jerald kept msning me stuffs like;
"your purpose in life is to be with ***",
"i'm gg to the gym today, u gg to the ***?"
"love is wonderful",
"when 2 becomes 1"
and he had to go on singing.. Damn him! =/
his going to get married and im out of love.
Thanks& i had to go over and strangle him!
grrrr~~~~~~ k enough of scolding him.
Jerald's nice and all, but his super 38. lol.
always steal my food...and so childish for a 28.. hahs!

Friday;
Accompanied ah peg to aunty joey's place for haircut.

Seee~ i'm soo loved =)

this 2 love birds damn disgusting.
Super mushy -.- cannot stand it man

grr.. gross*

&i always have to scream at them to make themstop.
however, not successful.

Went to this hokkaido steamboat at paradiz centre.
Yummmy..
Very good.

haven had soo much food in a loong time. =)

*i insist that i look like xian nu in this pic

smooookkkyy``

After food, caught saw4..

*gasp

i nearly puked. -.-

I love mummy!! :)

2007-11-01T15:42:00.000+08:00

Just to show off a lil.
My wen nuan brand bian dang;

The lunch box mummy prepared for me everymorn=)

Fried Rice for Monday!

Tues' menu; Egg + Veg + BraisedChicken w mushs

Weds' menu; Cabbage + Sardin + Tofu w minced meat

Thurs' menu; Fried meat + Grilled honey chicken + Asparagus w scallops

And my 5 green apples for the week =)

Sry mom,
to make u worry.
I had to take a break,

run wild,

just to know how good home feels.

Sometimes we do need a , in our lifes. =)

2007-10-30T09:40:00.000+08:00

This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital.

How true, that through our lifes we rush&we rushed,
in the hasty, we moved too fast to realise what we are missing.

**
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done !
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

my bedtime story i tell myself

2007-10-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Today's winnie's rom.
=) went to partyworld after work to celebrate.
*Sweets
When u get ppl ard you joining hands in marriage,
sometimes it makes u feel like marrying too..
But anything after the getting married part doesnt seem to enjoyable..

Mom made me fried rice for dinner&lunch,
later she's goanna prepare for me a few dishes with rice to bring to work.
xing fu~ Thank you mom for being soo kind & patient.

Managed to do some exercise & blog a lil before resting.
My eyes are almost closing.. *.*
Did alot of stretch'g, some pushups&crunches..
Shld so try to make it a point to do this everynight.
not that hard to spend half an hr watching tv, chat with mom & stretch.

I feel that im trying to hang back onto my comfort zone.
but sometimes, what you think makes u most comfortable,
might be just another cold fat hope.
I'm thinking, maybe, prolly, i shld, just let it all go and move on.
M i trying too hard to let go?
Or m i trying too hard to move on?
Is this what i've been looking for?
Or its just another merry go round?
Confusion, illusions, contradictions,
maybe the answer to all is isolation...
Heck. im just tired, and my brain is playing games.

*yawns.
nites =)

Time passes duper past when you're having fun

2007-10-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

grrr...
i'm putting back the weight i've lost.
Shit!
All the snacking in the office... ARggHHH!!!!
myohmy... And i've went groceries shopping again ystd.
1 bag of Wangwang, 1 box of Yamyam, 2 cupnoodles, 3 maggi mee, 5 apples.
man 0.O

Mom prepared sumptous friedrice for me for lunch at work.
Ai xin bian dang.. kkekeke... Told her i wanna save money, plus i really don't feel like walking out on a monday. Sian half. Since i wouldnt have enough time for dinner, i guess i'll have fried rice at work in the evening before going for driving lesson. Hoohoo :) I'm goanna try to save 50bucks before sat so i chld spend on cheryl's bday celebration. No taxis, not spending more then 7 on a meal. And i really need to watch what i eat. If i snack, i'll skip proper meals. If i'm feeling satisfied, stop before i'm full. Drink water, cut down on sugar. Have more fruits. Try to go jogging, dance more, play basketball, skate. (: )

Now, some pictures i took over the last wk to share;

My Co, ACM has this welfare thingy that the HR wld organise every month.
Get together for the employees. Sweets eh =)
We had really good satay&nasilemak, and games to play.

That's my boss in white,
trying to play 5stones while balancing his food.
lols

Got to dine with my collegues at this Vietnamese restaraunt near Maybank. Doooper good and very filllingg.. Shall get the details and recommend :)
& i finally got my facial session on fri. -.- painful..

Ahh. My wkends were good. Very tiring..
On sat, i went for hiphop&reggae dance classes with Pegdear. Cheryl & Adeline was supposed to come but huhney overslept and ade had to work -.- Baoli refuses to come... lols
But i had alooot of fun. When we started with hiphop, we had to do exercises. We did some pumping and crunches ._. i nearly died. We were already aching all over after the pre-dance warmups. LOL. Lousy... i know i'm Super weak. Diaoo. But at least we managed to survive through the 2hrs. WhooHooo. I feel 2kg lighter. But im aching on my arms and tummy and legs, and my shoulder hurts.. *grumbles

After which, we went for food at Indulge, GrandCathay Basement. Really good :)
And i had a great get-together time with mydarling,

&her bf who really cant stop suanning me. grr.
miss u babe~~~ muahsss!

Big Mango & Lychee smoothie. Whoohoo

After the gourmet, we went to play CS & den pool. Fun!!
Den, i met up with Jim&jason to skate with many others at the esplanade.
Fun ;) besides the part that jim has to quarrel with me again. hmmm..

*really, u're such a sweet heart when you do not try to be mean. =/

Tried to do toe acid. Lamos.. So difficult -.- heng bryan lent me a side of the kneeguard. But i still had bruises on my knees.. Didnt get to take pictures cos my phone was dead by then. If it wasnt, i'll take many pictures of the shuai ges at esplanade. LOLS. Damn pro. and hot! ahh~ imagine. half naked men who are cute of cos, doing stuns with bikes & those breakdancing. Cheryl, when you got nothing to do, just buy a packet of twisty&a drink. :) & we can spend quality time. lols

Anyways...(change topic before jim scolds). So we urbaned to UOB building and after that, went to the courtyard near my place to meet up with ming and continued trying to slide. But really.. I was very exhausted and drained.

&sian lar. There's this new manager whose in the office so i had to give up my seat for her and move to this corner of the office. Even though i have this good view of the victoria theatre's clock, it was very crumped and messy and i had to clear the stuffs.. Worst, i do not have a computer. Grrr..... -.-

//and i miss Ba Chor Mee at 85 and the real good Bedok Fish Noodles with milk. KHIMLENG!!!!!!!!!! *coughs

nostalgia, recollection, remniscence.

2007-10-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

This is the 101th entry, which only proves that i'm really good at crapping.
Took alot of time before i finally settled down to write some words,
for i thought it should at least, be meaningful :)

I cracked my head, and decided. I shld probably use this time putting pieces together, to decide what i really want to do with my life. Do some recollection & fixing things up.

I learnt the big big differences that holds btw;
What i want, what i can, what i am capable of, what i'm allowed to, what i should/not.

When i was younger, I had big big dreams of what i want to do when i grow up. I guess everyone had their very own piece of fantasy. I remember when i was 10 i used say things like, I wanna build a 4 stories tall mansion with basement and swimming pool and everyone in the family could stay together, buy everyone lambos, buy myself a grandpiano. It started out with 3 stories and i drew the floor plan and shown mom&dad where they would sleep in and i realised i didnt had enough rooms for my sisters so i added the 4th story and the basement :) Of cos, i have been much of a have-fun freak since young, i had many rooms for latenight parties and all the saunas & jakuz.. indoor pool, a maid for every different chore.. Then when i was a lil older, such extravagencies from jackiechan movies got knocked out of my head and i wanted to be a policewomen. A vet? Then it was this time when i was 12, i thought of how nice it would be if i was a dolphin, a mermaid, a unicorn, catwoman, or even be part of the powerpuff girls. It would be great if i had magical powers like the charmed, & i remember the days when i try moving the tissue paper with char reciting some spells we found online. -.- & we always force ourselves to believe it moved. guess it might have just been the wind, or if i really had powers.. Becareful, i'll turn you into a tadpole! ;) *grin

Those days, you would call them foolishness, naive, plain simple;
but within all the childhood fairy tales, we as children had a heart full of hope and faith that we believe what is said to be myth&legends would come true. But such passion and beliefs die as we get more and more exposed to how cruel the reality world is, how harsh and difficult.

By the end of secondary school, dreams became a lil more practical. No more whooha about trying to fly without wings, or to live under the waters, i wanted to be a entrepreneur. Probably have a little cafe of my own, spending cookies&milk time away with piles of cushions and books.

Now, such dreams seems so difficult and far-fetched. The competitiveness drowns the creativity. For one time, i was totally lost with what i would do after graduation, but i guess it all became clear after some chat with my parents. :) Thank God for that. I've also learnt that, many a times, what i want to do is not what i would end up doing. For some reason, things does end up the way you have never expected it to be... at least for me.

Since my further has more or less been planned, i shall fully utilise my time. I'll go all way out to have fun for the next three yrs, further my studies, have fun taking part-times, giggle&bitch, spend my parent's money, travel as much as i can at least twice a yr and when im done for the 3 yrs, i'll pack these joy and settle down to work really hard. I've planned alternatives :) lols, i know i'm being the typical ahsoh me. But I need to have backup plans. =)

If my grades get me into a local uni, i'll do marketing. If its SIM (dunno why everyone's being very passive about it) i think i'll just go ahead to do marketing.
If my grades arent good enough for a local uni, it depends if my parents are willing to send me overseas. And i've decided it shall be State University of Arizona, Pheonix.
If not, i'll do smt which i love to, in a private uni, smt totally unrelated to what i've been trained to. And i would do theatre arts, or visual communications, or music, all of which i love at laselle. =) Let God set the paths.

After 3 yrs of mischief and to continue having fun as a kid, i'll need to settle down and work. Mom&dad wants to retire soon, guess they are tired working so hard so long. :) So before i take on the responsibilities and pressure, allow me to fantasize a lil and plan all the fun i chld have..

I've planned for a short wk holiday at somewhere nearby after graduation like Thailand/Langkawi with my friends to spend some time. Thailand because Cheryl & i are crazy over it. Dunno why also. Langkawi because i'll save money on the hotels, get dad to sponsor. lols. Don't wanna go hongkong,.... india? NehS!~not china again! Even though Jim says he pay half of the air ticket for me to go Beijing over the 2wks break i have in dec, huhney says she'll let me stay with her. arrghhsS! i'll so miss u 2 when u guys are off to mainland.. How bout Japan? i can't afford. So i guess, Thailand is a pretty gd choice afterall. It'll be gd if pegdear comes along. I would really love to go wakeboarding at Batam sometime. Dad just didnt feel right about the rioting and whoohas. Weird eh. And they actually allow me to go to china or the states. So, i'll be traveling states for probably 1-2mths in april to spend some crazy times doing road trips with my bestestfriends and check out the uni and pay a visit to my sister and by the end of it, it'll be just nice for entry to uni. For a long term plan, i would really wanna travel Europe in 2009 and probably stay in Aussie for awhile in 2010 if my sister ends up there.

Reub: It'll be good if u'll fly down to the states to pay me a visit, go do crazy stuffs.. We'll roll up in sleeping bags in my sis's living room. haha! But you'll do the driving & i'll sleep, i'll do the partying while u watch my back, we'll go for le miserable & u pay. LOL.. but really =) i wouldnt be the slightest mad if you chose Him over me and give it all a miss.

Cheryl: I know you'll pack your bags and passport and run away from home over the 2mths with me. But really, i don't want your dad to condemn me after that. still i love for you to go.. lol. Aiya! im soo contradicted. Hmmms. i guess i'll still op for you running away from home to elope with me! hahah.. huney Love u soo much u know. Aiyooo~ you go china find cheena boyfriend i how? though i know u wont. But what if you find a angmor staying in china? Aiya!!! Jealous~

Jim: eh bf, dont always grumble say i blog for cheryl nvr blog for u lar. =) I'll love to go on a holiday with you.. AND BEHAVE YOURSELF IN MAINLAND. you know i've got many many many many and i mean many eyes watching. Haha. Have fun & enjoy independence. Learn to do the chores, it's free maids-training session and when you're back you'll be the Maria instead. HooHoohooo!! Den you can sing, "...let me do the dishes in our kitchen sing...". Cause you'll learn to wash them clean right rather den sprinkling water when i'm trying to clean -.- and say neh i did the dishes. Wahahaha...
muahhs! =)

P/S: Qiqi, i remember the pack we made when we were 12, to travel to Barcelona together bagpacking. I still remember i've actually made my dad signed a approval letter which we wrote on this white piece of paper. I missed you soo much =)

Partyowls

2007-10-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

19Oct' 07;
Friday

When you add Manda to Cherr and you leave them to air for 5mins,
these are the reactions you should observe;

my trick that she learnt to do. ;p

in this picture, u can see my honey's pi sai =)
WHHOAHAHAHAOOAHAH
*i bold it on purpose

Ahhh~~``
welcome Bao to the club!
=) partying @ plush.

DennisK & Cobe Millarrrr
hot! hot! hot stuff!

Only girls get such luxuries in the toilets.

I've eaten enough for a wk over the wkend

2007-10-22T10:48:00.000+08:00

Padang Empress Palace Restaraunt @ Singapore Recreation Club
The Dim Sum was yummy.
&yet affordable

21Oct' 07;

Sunday

& I brought the family over for belated celebration for jie.

muaahs!!~

*dad got me a digital camera,
ahhh!! =)

Havent met up with the gang for a really long time.
Ppl who i know since primary.

who cares what they say!

Gor who's supercam-shy insist i take pictures of his luminous addis.

Kim's 80bucks cap;
well.. I've got a few caps which i never really dared to wear cos dajie says i've got a big head.
And wearing a cap just enlarges my fat head. -.-
Sobs......

They say i look greedy,

i say i'm really greedy ;)

feng, ;) & his new braun

Kim looks like McHotDog

&his trying really hard to stay looking like one..

while i just go on being the crazy fanatic~

can't i have a switch of roles to play some times-.-
always play the crackedmadwoman

but its fun lar~ whoohoo

my friends for life

from kiddos to muscle man,

&ahh! hamm! hot babes,

til we turn old and grumpy and the guys get shaggy boobiiess,

while the girls still remain hot babes!

=) much love

Sissy's Birthday Celebration

2007-10-22T10:29:00.001+08:00

16Oct'07;

tuesday

Yeah~we had a birthday celebration over Korean food & partyworld.
Many many pheektures to share =)

as usual; i'm trying to irritate her.
but its v difficult u noe, Cos im simply too adorable
WaHAHahA!!~

muahhhs!~ <3

They look so cute in this pic;

&Don't bother counting the candles. ;)

ahhh! my sister got really quick hands... whoohoo

make a wish;
& dismantle the cake!!!!

cam-whoring while waiting for our songs. Lol

**Love her.

& her nicest friends. =)

updates;)

2007-10-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

It's my darling da jie's birthday today!
Celebrating later @ KTV or smt..
HappyBirthday gorgeous =)
Hope the family could meet up on sun for belated bdae dinner.

Was try'g to book an earlier date for prac test -.- Super stressful cause you risk losing the date you have and not being able to book the earlier date.
Damn it. Stupid system.. Called Nigel to get him to teach me what to do.
And the comp just had to hang like 10 times.....
Heng i got it. (Though just a day difference; i don't have to renew my PDL.)
That is of cos, if i pass :)

I passed my pianoexam;
Thank God.
*giggles...

Went to church on Sunday&
shopped after that;

There's this interesting&scary chemistry me&huhney shares.
I smsed her if she wants me to bring shades for her cos i'll be bringing,
and she replied;
omg! i was just thinking how good it'll be if i had a pair of shades now.
heex... we will make a very good pair. LOL.
Sadly u werent a guy~
but lesbiany sounds gd too! ;)
muahhss!!!~

The many pictures that we took while waiting for seats at crystaljade;

the hungryghosts waiting for fooooddd

Cheryl's showing the "It's seriously good!" face

Wonders of Pictures in the toilets

;) we're very happy

Showcasing our lovetoken *(-.~)*

&all the nonsense we do to each other;

*her cute&short VS my long&scary tongue;

I think maybe the length of the tongue is proportionate to one's height!

PRESENTING....
MY LOVELY HAMBURGER FACE~~
=)

I hate it when it pours;

we were very drenched.
jerald posing for the shot.Lols

He said he need to pretend walking..
really..... -.-

den he went ssss cooooollllddddd
*runs to the toilet to dry with the handdryer

&more cam-whoring;

Sweetest Feifei;

-.-with the spastic look.

HILARIOUS!!!!~~~~
Enlarge&get what i mean.
Love u still... hahaha

Overflowing emotions

2007-10-12T09:37:00.000+08:00

My huhney&darling inspired me, and i decided to write my feelings down in this entry.
With the thoughts of heartache&happiness i've been blessed with, a heavy heart and a thankful soul, and longing to share; these keeps me writing.
It'll be a long and whiny entry, but i do really hope that it touches somebody. And make change in someone's life.

I'll call it : A blog about dad.
To many others it might be your mom, your siblings,
it all works similar in a way or another.
Just read on. =)

In this complex society where bread&butter strangles everyone so tightly they could hardly breathe, where they spend time at work more then at home, where workpile&competition rob them of their joy and patience to love their family like before. The harder the parents work, it just makes the child sadder. When the strong passion of love that was strongly expressed with kisses on the cheeks became nothing but a slight nod when you say goodnight, when consolation that was always given when you were bullied by other kids or when you fell badly turned into nasty words like "How stupid!" "Fall again?" "I'm busy!". It shuts. Slowly, it moulds one child to behave and grow in a certain way. First she try acting spoilt and throwing tantrums; just to try attracting the attention she used to receive. But as she grows older and it came clear that regection would be the only thing she receives, love turn sour. Loneliness overwhelms and confusion swallows.
They defy, challenge, disobey, criticize, violate and the fire just grows bigger.

"What happened to you?", the parents would say, "and you were never like that in the past!" These words said in much disappoint and rage. But hey, we tried didnt we? We gave signals, we did all we could and all we knew how to. What happened to you? You were nice and kind and you were never like, to start of with. Hasnt we always been stuck its this irony, for so so many times. And everytime we do try to speak of how we feel, "You're just a kid. You'll never understand." Gradually, these effort were seen useless, we get disheartened and soon enough, we do not bother.

I've felt this.
In my family, i'm the youngest.
All along, i've always felt like the only.
With 2 elder sisters 8&7yrs older, it difficult for them to not like you and find you annoying. Communication gap is of cos in the way and sometimes, maybe they feel embarrassed having me around with their friends because dad&mom made them bring me along. My parents are the typical working adults who work 8 to 6 and sometimes even later and get home for dinner. They work very hard to provide for me and mysisters. I lived with a nanny when i was young and older, maids took care of me. My family ain't the loaded kinds, but we do make enough for ouselves and to spend extras having fun. And my parents gave me almost what i wanted. All the way up to secondary 4, i lived the life of a princess. Spoilt, pampered, had all i wanted. Literally. I didn't had to fetch my own glass of water, not even need to stretch for the remote control cos "Siti!" was the only word i had to master. I never had to take a bus to/back from school until secondary 2, when i quarreled with my dad complaining why all my friends could take bus home together and he must fetch me. I was Ignorant. Even til secondary 4, my24hrs dad would pick me to wherever i'm meeting my friends for movie and pick me home again. My dad was the closest person i had in my family, i'll talk to him about anything and he'll give me everything. I remember dad told me once in sec4, when he thought i joined a gang and wanted to send me to girlshome (really, that time all i did was hang out at macs with my friends til 7 and sometimes miss dinner, compared to what i did after secondary school, i was angelic.) I remember vividly what he said, "If ever some hooligan comes up to you to stir trouble, i want to be the first person you think of calling. Get them to wait, tell them your dad is coming and i wouldnt care going to jail or die protecting you." I remember that was a long crying session.

But in ever good grandmother fairytale story, mishaps have to fall. Dad faced temptation, like many others and he failed. For once, i felt very lost. My shelther and refuge, collapsing and i had to escape. I love my dad, but i just felt that love is a very scary thing. I lost the courage to believe in men. That it is impossible to depend on one, and slowly, disbelief got swallowed by disgust. I dont usually go home after 12 when i was 17, but from that particular night when i stormed out of house after my parents quarreled, my life changed. I never reached home before 12, and i left home at 5.30 so that i dont bump into my dad at home. I never knew how to speak my mom or my sisters before and i didnt know how to start off with. Then by the time i know, lost&confusion needed relief&escape. I met many nice ppl. They were good friends, bring you out to have fun, i learnt drinking and they thought me smoking. Gradually, such nightlife got me addicted and from once a wk, it became 4times a wk. I clubbed alot, even though i don't really like the place and ppl, but the loudmusic and grayedair makes all seemed so tv, so fairytale. Underage clubbing was so exciting. And also, i got introduced to a dangerous yet appealing thing called the penknife. I've got a great friend, whose sadistic. And i turned sadistic too. For some reason, the physical pain felt so good, cause it was capable to make you not think of what was stabbing in your heart so deeply. But after it all, i realised it stills comes back. Many ppl take Amanda as the cheery, smiling bunny but really, don't judge the book by its cover. There's much within then just a happybottle. I've ran away from home after quarreling with dad&mom over different view&bf issues, worked 3jobs at a time, trying to earn as much to prove to my dad that i can be independent. Instead of being angry, he pleaded me to go home and take my allowance. I was being plainly stupid. In secondary school, when i weighed less then 50, the boys would laugh and tease me calling me fat. Jokes i know, which always affected girls. And when all this builds in, i turned bulllimic. I loved eating, eat and eat and eat. And i'll try digging it out, to make me feel less guilty. It was awful, but i felt better. Gradually, i didnt even had to use the finger to dig, it jsut comes soo naturally. Eat and puke. Fullstop. After some time, i stopped eating. In a wk surviving just a bottle of soyamilk a day, i lost 6 kg. But trust me girls, it'll all come back, adding even more.. Now i weigh more then 50(dont ask!) lols, i really can't be bothered what you wanna comment about. You're just jealous.

It took me 4 months to get the courage to talk to my dad again. And it takes really long time to let it all heal. Now that i had been more then a yr ago, i do feel the jitters when i think about it. Sometimes when i share with my friends who go through the same thing, i share the tears for i know it never felt good. But its part and parcel of life. It made me stronger. It made me appreciate life better. It made me love mymom&sisters alot. It made me love dad more. And i do know, i don't believe in fairytales. I forgive my dad, i forgive myself and those who hurt me. my friends didnt thought me the wrong things. Drinking and smoking aint exactly wrong/bad. Its judgemental. But i walked out of it, knowing my life is more precious to be spending it on wasted nights. I do love clubbing now. Very much different from the past cause now i do it legally, with the right people who only brings me joy and love, and i've not touched a cig. I know my dad, my family loves and worries alot about me. Just that they do not know how to express them verbally. In the asian contexts, it's so difficult to tell your family "I love you". You would say it so passionately to someone you're infatuated with. Somebody you bearly know. But why does it make you so nervous and awkward making you gasps and swallow these simples words? I'm blessed to have a mushy dad who constantly reminds me how much he loves me. He'll tell me words like, "You know, i love you alot and i want the best out of you..." after which he'll give me a looong lecture for coming home late and stuff. typical. :) My mom who calls me everytime to ask me where i'm and if i'm gg back yet. Allows me to overspend, and learnt to spare me from naggings. Now she does it, in the way of reminding. My sisters buys me many things to pamper me, bring me out to clubs&tosing, get me exposed to many things i've never seen and show me love and concern always. Everytime i face problems, i know i could talk to them about everything cause they've seen many and been through lots too.

The path of life is layed with traps and needles, also filled with treats and love. Many a times, we wallow in self-pity, over trival matters do we get overwhelmed with disappointment with ppl. Disappointed is far more threatening then anger. It kills others and slowly eats you up to make you hurt everyone elses. We need to understand, nobody can ever be perfect. Many ppl come by sharing love, and alot others come by hurting you. They are tests given to make you stronger and to allow you to grow over them and not get shadowed instead.

**
To darlingpeg: Ppl come into your life, as tresspassers to hurt you to disappoint you and to make you feel all so lousy about yourself. Maybe they do love you but they do not know how to convey it the right way, maybe they are jealous of the joy you have and wants to rip you off lala land, maybe they are just devils' disguise who got nothing better to do but make you feel bad cause that's whats make them happy. When you do get so so upset, there they are laughing away celebrating their triumph over your happiness. Instead of getting all so sad, laugh it away and prove to these cunning unblessed ppl that how sad they are to be doing all these because really, God do love me a little more then you. =)
And i do, love you more then Andy. *giggles

**
To huhney: Love, like i said before. I think i'm doing worst because i couldnt remember when was the last time i even say my dad and said something to him. Maybe a wk ago? Because i nvr was home early. Ystd, i chatted with him a lil and i asked for money -.- shame shame. Well, i always feel that. Everytime we complain that they dont understand us, dont give us what we want and stuff, we need to think that why havent we tried doing something instead. Parents find it difficult to communicate with us, because we block them out of our lives thinking they would never understand. But i guess; study, work, politics, quarrels, competition, love, they have all been through them too. And they've been through them all soo many times i bet they know how to deal with them better then us. Sometimes when my mom gets moodswings, i try to understand because i know she had a rough day. Sometimes when i can't take it, i'll tell her nicely, "Why are you venting you anger on me? If you think it is right then go on." And she'll write me a note apologising and telling me how much she loves me. Well It shldnt always be them doing the work. They've worked so many years trying to give us home bread and butter, we do have to try harder right? I make simple phone calls to ask if he has eaten. when i'm at the interchange i'll call and ask if he wants anything. I'll leave little notes saying GoodMorningDad (even though its usually, chld i have a hundred prettypls). It brightens up his day :) Its a simple care to show you love. Too bad they don't have friendster, or it'll be easier to comment isnt it?
I love u honey.

Appreciate what i have, see joy in everything i do.
This is what i'm still learning and i need to grow better in.

Love the Art of Word.

2007-10-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

Just some random pics i took ystd;

That's my supervisor, being very irritating;

giving me 5 bucks worth of coins to clear his pouch.
Diaooo..

& he keeps imitating me, calling me ahmar.
Grrrr.

We dined at Rabbit Brand Seafood Delicious;

where you get Abalone&Sharkfin (im serious) for $5.90.

But its not those top grades and its small. Duh.
Not bad though, but i rather pay $2.50 for my nasilemak!!

Next time we're going to try this $3.50 steamboat.
Interesting places around clarkequay;

After work,

i met Jim&Bao&Yao for a game at Mind'scafe.
The food was good.

We're soo addicted to boardgaming now.

Tried this game where u need to either Charade/Draw/Recite& others need to guess what emotion that is; ssooo my kinda game.
Tried UglyUglyUgly(like Snap) which got us screaming and whacking each other for cards. lols
Played I'm the Boss, where money comes into the pictures, friends become foes. Literally
Lastly, we played Tabooo. So love the game.

***
Still remember the times,
When i played taboo back in ELC camps.
Where literature is the common passion and everyone speaks of strong words of love for the culture. =) Where pun had the power stronger then guns.
dramamama/poems/metaphors/sacarsm.
Never will i have enough of them.

=) ThankGod for all i have and not have.

2007-10-10T11:58:00.000+08:00

ohyar!

forgot to share my joy.
I'm going for my braces!! whOhoho..
All along mom's been asking me to get it done, but the thought of needing to go through extraction torments me.
Now i'm going for Lightforce, hope it all finishes by 9 mths.
I've got the best mom lar! and dad of cos!!~ =)
Wonderful sisters and loviest dogs.
And amazing friends :)
I love you all, alot.

Some pictures that made me feel;

Many ppl, busy working ppl walk along the bridge every morning, out to lunch, and back home.
However, how many a times do we appreciate the beauty that surrounds us. Tourists spend time taking pictures, feeling the breeze and enjoying the sun in a place they say WOw, such a spectacular view. While we hastily walked and couldnt wait to get done and over crossing the damn bridge. I
t is typical of us, and very depressing that we never fail taking things for granted.

Across the river is where i work;
A wonderful place. Surrounded by the river and skyscrapers, colonel&important buildings.
Within the premise, its just another office place.
Air-con, cubicles, work&work.
What are Singaporeans working so hard for?
There aint fame, fortune for us to fight over.
Bread&Butter? neh. Or its just a game of Sims controlled by the ppl we call Gov?

Everyday, if its sunny and the weather is well, there are 2 cats who would lay comfortably by the CatStatues at the corner of the Bridge. I always see the black cat licking and caring for its partner when the other is soundly asleep. Always cuddling & staying close together. And when i try taking shots of them too closely, they would stare at me fiercely. Warning me they'll die fighting to protect.

i'm not at all cat's person, but amazingly.
These animals know how to love better, care better and give all they have for another.
Being the so-called more intelligent humansbeing,
we find it difficult understanding other's needs&wants.
Maybe we do know, but are simply reluctant to humble ourselves to love, care & to pamper.