stephenie meyer wrote to fulfil our deepest desires, of what love could had been.

I'll be back so soon you won't have time to miss me.
Look after my heart - I've left it with you.


ahh, words frm edward, all so sweet that it has to only be from the prince of fantasies.

if only,..
urgghh.

boys frm a century ago. if only they were rrly ard.
and my blood sang for him to leave him madly in love with me,
that my voice could never be prick on the ear,
that having my tears would tumble his world;
not leaving me there after a quarrel following what he said were my orders.
fine.
i had a week that were too long but i see i shld be enjoying it.
silence, less words = less conflict.

damn, im reading too much of the romance i'm starting to dream to be part of.
urgghh.
if only,..
what's so difficult to be that lil bit romantic?

I woke up killing people and this Cute guy appearing in my hse.

Whooaaa~ i just realised how long have i not been online. 1mth not blogged, 83mails. & its been mths since i was on friendster and maybe a yr since facebk. lol

Anyways,
i am like so happy with starhub so i decided to SHARE :) like a typical marketing student.
I couldnt sleep like the whole night. since i was back at 3am ystd, i kept waking up running from gta. (i'll further elaborate on this later, too excited bout starhub). And at 730am i tried to watch channel 256. And it was one of my fav shows, xing guang da dao 3. this taiwanese singing contest. So to my horror, i couldnt even watch it! like the screen was blank. (we terminated the old line and signed up again to change the box and to enjoy new member benefits, but 2nd day on, the stupid screen kept showing pls dail 1633 to subscribe. -.- like all the channels except channel 8, u, i, 5, arts. like what the hell. i dun even need svc for those.) so i called 1633. this very nice voice answered; joycelyn (yes im selling..) and i was ermhmgrouchy. but she helped me throughout the near 45mins call & restarted the thing or smt. and i chld watch! happy...
And den, 915am, this guy showed up at my door with a box and im like yes? hur? and he was like errr... starhub? your box blocked? right? and im like??? yeahhh but.. (and im thinking wahhh sehhh.. freaking efficient right) and he told me he stayed ard my area and he rushed down when his salesmen called him (WAH WAH SEH. even more impressed right) and to add to it, he was cute. haha. like young and cute. but a lil young for me. (i like older guys like fishe hurrhurr...) maybe like 18-skinny 172 (at most) in those dirty worn converse, t-shirt jeans and he had a very nice smile . (okay, dont let fishe hear this.) so a cute boy ending up in my place earli in the mornin is okayyyarr.. but when he came in he was like EH? why u can watch this channel? and i was like? why you bring the box? and we were like stunned for like 10s. and we rrly didnt know what to do. and i didnt understd what the heck he was to explain. So i called joycelyn. and i was like. errs theres this guy doing in my hse, and i donno why his here. LOL. so she spoke to him yada and he went off. oh his name is Edmund. hurr~ den 940am. my mom rushed hm. i was like? what happened? (and i got to know, my mom booked an appointment with Edmund to fix the cable tv ystd for this morn) but still, :)
my new starhub remote controller is spoilt and im not even complaining...
im sooo goanna write them compliments!
but its sooo tedious to just write feedback for starhub, soo many procedures.

okayy,
now what i meant by waking up kicking from gta.
im like all obsessed with gta. i know its a rrly old game,
but my sweetheart bought it for me 2wks ago to play on the xbox because i always looked so bored. (hmmm) and i've not started studying because of it! URRGGHHHH...
& i havent been sleeping well for the whole wk. i kept thinking of things. like dumb things. picturing myself in a movie; dawn of the dead. getting chased by zombies, using the dog to pass food across buildings and the zombies eventually gettin in to the building... -.- and i wasnt like just dreaming, i was forcing a dream. if u know what i mean. i was like forcing the story to go on, so i wasnt asleep. and this morn, i had the weirdest experience.. i woke up, like 4 times, with my feet "RUNNING" literally kicking -.- and i prolly woke up 2times (not in shock) getting caught my the cops (after killing someone in liberty city).. SEE!!!! argghhh..
:( & i soo need to club.
yes after exams is the phrase to recite.
i feel like ordering macs..

burrp*

OK! Here is UTT!!! hoohoooo

damn hot right. me and nur were nearly drolling over him.

& the v calm poh kept asking us to shut up cos we were literally screaming.

or at least i was yelling, "I WANT TO TAKE PIC WITH UTT!" and before i even realised, nur was already talking to him -.- fast.

BUT my lil bubble has been burst. DAMN.

i've always tot of Utt as the really hot and sexy, tall and manly, mascular, tall cute hunk.

apparently things don't turn out as tv as they seem. He's still hot, but not very tall, very cute but maybe not very straight. sob.

WHY!!!!!!! cute men just has diff fetish!

nur and poh were damn funny, trying to debate on the issue that if he's straight.

poh kept emphasizing that he's not straight, like bluntly! saying his GAY!

AHHHH *just visualize. the world came crashing down on me.

nur went, 'no he's not! he dated denise wat!" (NODS FRANTICALLY)

poh: its just a coverup.. (COVERUP SIAAAA....tsk tsk)

nur: ya la. BUT he's not lar.

poh: u 2 r jus living in denial (AHHHHH. GRRRR! I BITE! I WILL RRLY BITE UR SKINNY BONNY ARMS AND SQUEEZE UR BOOBS!)

nur: k stop it. i m still not taking his gay

and all this while, poor amanda whine and has her heart shattered into pieces. *chingching

-if only shattering sounds like that. watever.

i wanted to flaunt my very limited Thai with Utt (like no. 1-10 or like introduce myself, and saying this is expensive.) but apparently my friends had lil faith in my common of Thai. Oh Pls! i speak rrly gd thai k. nxt time i demonstrate. lol

i cant sleep :(
its the kind of; u-rrly-want-to-do-smt-for-schproj,-but-nothin-gets-progressive kind of FREAKING ME OUT FEELING!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH. darn. i spent 3 hrs on figuring out that there's SOO MUCH TO DO.

damn damn.