stephenie meyer wrote to fulfil our deepest desires, of what love could had been.

I'll be back so soon you won't have time to miss me.
Look after my heart - I've left it with you.


ahh, words frm edward, all so sweet that it has to only be from the prince of fantasies.

if only,..
urgghh.

boys frm a century ago. if only they were rrly ard.
and my blood sang for him to leave him madly in love with me,
that my voice could never be prick on the ear,
that having my tears would tumble his world;
not leaving me there after a quarrel following what he said were my orders.
fine.
i had a week that were too long but i see i shld be enjoying it.
silence, less words = less conflict.

damn, im reading too much of the romance i'm starting to dream to be part of.
urgghh.
if only,..
what's so difficult to be that lil bit romantic?

I woke up killing people and this Cute guy appearing in my hse.

Whooaaa~ i just realised how long have i not been online. 1mth not blogged, 83mails. & its been mths since i was on friendster and maybe a yr since facebk. lol

Anyways,
i am like so happy with starhub so i decided to SHARE :) like a typical marketing student.
I couldnt sleep like the whole night. since i was back at 3am ystd, i kept waking up running from gta. (i'll further elaborate on this later, too excited bout starhub). And at 730am i tried to watch channel 256. And it was one of my fav shows, xing guang da dao 3. this taiwanese singing contest. So to my horror, i couldnt even watch it! like the screen was blank. (we terminated the old line and signed up again to change the box and to enjoy new member benefits, but 2nd day on, the stupid screen kept showing pls dail 1633 to subscribe. -.- like all the channels except channel 8, u, i, 5, arts. like what the hell. i dun even need svc for those.) so i called 1633. this very nice voice answered; joycelyn (yes im selling..) and i was ermhmgrouchy. but she helped me throughout the near 45mins call & restarted the thing or smt. and i chld watch! happy...
And den, 915am, this guy showed up at my door with a box and im like yes? hur? and he was like errr... starhub? your box blocked? right? and im like??? yeahhh but.. (and im thinking wahhh sehhh.. freaking efficient right) and he told me he stayed ard my area and he rushed down when his salesmen called him (WAH WAH SEH. even more impressed right) and to add to it, he was cute. haha. like young and cute. but a lil young for me. (i like older guys like fishe hurrhurr...) maybe like 18-skinny 172 (at most) in those dirty worn converse, t-shirt jeans and he had a very nice smile . (okay, dont let fishe hear this.) so a cute boy ending up in my place earli in the mornin is okayyyarr.. but when he came in he was like EH? why u can watch this channel? and i was like? why you bring the box? and we were like stunned for like 10s. and we rrly didnt know what to do. and i didnt understd what the heck he was to explain. So i called joycelyn. and i was like. errs theres this guy doing in my hse, and i donno why his here. LOL. so she spoke to him yada and he went off. oh his name is Edmund. hurr~ den 940am. my mom rushed hm. i was like? what happened? (and i got to know, my mom booked an appointment with Edmund to fix the cable tv ystd for this morn) but still, :)
my new starhub remote controller is spoilt and im not even complaining...
im sooo goanna write them compliments!
but its sooo tedious to just write feedback for starhub, soo many procedures.

okayy,
now what i meant by waking up kicking from gta.
im like all obsessed with gta. i know its a rrly old game,
but my sweetheart bought it for me 2wks ago to play on the xbox because i always looked so bored. (hmmm) and i've not started studying because of it! URRGGHHHH...
& i havent been sleeping well for the whole wk. i kept thinking of things. like dumb things. picturing myself in a movie; dawn of the dead. getting chased by zombies, using the dog to pass food across buildings and the zombies eventually gettin in to the building... -.- and i wasnt like just dreaming, i was forcing a dream. if u know what i mean. i was like forcing the story to go on, so i wasnt asleep. and this morn, i had the weirdest experience.. i woke up, like 4 times, with my feet "RUNNING" literally kicking -.- and i prolly woke up 2times (not in shock) getting caught my the cops (after killing someone in liberty city).. SEE!!!! argghhh..
:( & i soo need to club.
yes after exams is the phrase to recite.
i feel like ordering macs..

burrp*

OK! Here is UTT!!! hoohoooo

damn hot right. me and nur were nearly drolling over him.

& the v calm poh kept asking us to shut up cos we were literally screaming.

or at least i was yelling, "I WANT TO TAKE PIC WITH UTT!" and before i even realised, nur was already talking to him -.- fast.

BUT my lil bubble has been burst. DAMN.

i've always tot of Utt as the really hot and sexy, tall and manly, mascular, tall cute hunk.

apparently things don't turn out as tv as they seem. He's still hot, but not very tall, very cute but maybe not very straight. sob.

WHY!!!!!!! cute men just has diff fetish!

nur and poh were damn funny, trying to debate on the issue that if he's straight.

poh kept emphasizing that he's not straight, like bluntly! saying his GAY!

AHHHH *just visualize. the world came crashing down on me.

nur went, 'no he's not! he dated denise wat!" (NODS FRANTICALLY)

poh: its just a coverup.. (COVERUP SIAAAA....tsk tsk)

nur: ya la. BUT he's not lar.

poh: u 2 r jus living in denial (AHHHHH. GRRRR! I BITE! I WILL RRLY BITE UR SKINNY BONNY ARMS AND SQUEEZE UR BOOBS!)

nur: k stop it. i m still not taking his gay

and all this while, poor amanda whine and has her heart shattered into pieces. *chingching

-if only shattering sounds like that. watever.

i wanted to flaunt my very limited Thai with Utt (like no. 1-10 or like introduce myself, and saying this is expensive.) but apparently my friends had lil faith in my common of Thai. Oh Pls! i speak rrly gd thai k. nxt time i demonstrate. lol

i cant sleep :(
its the kind of; u-rrly-want-to-do-smt-for-schproj,-but-nothin-gets-progressive kind of FREAKING ME OUT FEELING!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH. darn. i spent 3 hrs on figuring out that there's SOO MUCH TO DO.

damn damn.

ok im like damn touched.
i tot u guys stopped reading my blog..
sobb...

-
k enough of emo-ing.. :)

i need to find my cable and upload pics.
will do that tml!
now im like super enthu. 2.45am and im goanna do dc proj.


p/s: hohohoho!!!! damn high. i took pic with utt... hahahhaha be jealous.! his bf was there.
hah.
nurr send me the pics we took w utt pls.... hee. DONT DELETE IT ARH! :

i love eating papayas.!

ahh. :) im back typ'g.. after a nongnongtime.
decided to pack my bag and fly to japan for a breather; (blahblah)
before seating before my papaya and lappie trying to write smt for OB.
& i realised, for the past 2 days, i have only been awake for less then 18hrs.
AHHHH!
sobs. im sleeping my life awayyyyy~~~``

well.. all that i can remember in for the last mth.
I CLUBBED hohoho. with NURRRR. hohoho.
haahhahahahahah!
well, besides that. School's been good.
The people are madly in love with me ahahhahaha!
and of cos, i love them too. heehh. (DONT TWITCH!)
except red pants gayboy marcus lol.
kept tugging under the comforter to watch movies w fishe.
hmm, influenced by ningy and long.
thats what u get when u date a videoeazy girl. hah.
&thats what i get for dating an internet-savvy boy.
nono, he didnt download it.
we stream. ;)

AHHH!! fishe's giving me the glare and asking w a very strict tone,
"ARE YOU DOING UR PROJ???"-.-
imagine, with that long, low and deep sigh. hmmmmm
and everytime i look over he's staring.
gosh, blogging is stressful.
im pretending im work'g u see. ;);)
...
.....
.......AH! but i got caught. :(



(like aft 2 mins)
i havent been skating much, neither have i went shopping.
i been eating and sleeping. ALOT.
:(:(:( i went for lunch with my parents on mon and they were making dirty jokes -.-
i'll share my trauma with all;

my mom's as usual talking bout my tummy getting bigger then hers.
my dad den assures her that iim not fat and i do sports.
so i confessed that all i do now is skating. i've attempted to swim but when i see the pool, i get giddy. and when i tried running, i feel that my legs are breaking and my lungs bursting.
somehow, my parents came to an agreement that swimming is a very gd sport,
with a very interesting theory.
DAD: swimming makes u work ur body and besides, when u run, your breast will sag. and it'll look like papaya (with the papaya hand gesture) -.-
and my mom continued with
MOM: den how bout men?
DAD: oh! they wear ball guards.

and they were like laughing away..... hurrr.


p/s: I MISS NINGY, CHERYL, YANG, NIGEL :'( U ASSES!!!!!!!! *WHINES.

my dog got bitten by a sznau :(
baby's away at deployment again.
last time. Thank God!

sch's been gd. :)
made friends.
my baby's been very sweet.
the bus ride's getting better.
kayleighs in aussie.
noticed very weird ppl in class.
hoohoo.
went back to nyp for prata;
met the very fun ppl frm SU.
ah. somehow i missed poly life.
the fun times of cos.
it's so difficult to make friends in uni.

prettypretty. check it out!

http://www.embelle.blogspot.com

my sister's selling really pretty hair accessories :)
check them out! pass the msg priisssseey.

random load of pics :)

>my dearest bf makes me the climb the stairs instd of tak'g the lift.

this is what i do to successful make him piggyback me up 4 floors :):) HEE!

BigNose Princesss

A trip with the girls&bf to damsee.
i love Ben's! but i prefer AwfullyChoco.


StJames Night:)
Before jasjie went back.

-ok. blogger is cranky. the pics aint falling to where i want them to be. watever!
BTW! took the 1hr bus to sch and home today. The bus was pretty! Nurul says its called the musicbus.. ahhh ;)
but rrly, the journey is so tiring.... gosh.

baby's angry:(

im happy. :):)

hoho.
first day of sch at sim was interesting :)
baby was very sweet to send me to and fro sch.
lecture was gd.
the ppl was alright.
met some new people.
NP is freaking big!
i nearly got lost trying to look for its bookstore. damn
hope tml will only be better!
it'll be the first time ever me taking a bus all the way frm hougang to clementi.
thank God i've got Nurul to suffer the long journey with.


//ah, sooo many pics i've taken but didnt had the chance to upload. man.
maybe tml. hah!

finally i got to meet the very busy huhhneeyy :)
and very nice her boyfriend with my prince for dinner.
it was short and very sweet.
missed u already~ heehee.

went for an enrolment session at sim ystd;
hmm. met some friendly and some rrly not ppl.
hope sch would be fun. at least a lil.
there were ppl from poly that i cld recognised.
the tot of the more then an hr bus ride kills.
sob. stop complain'g. watever;
i shld complain while i still chld.

:):)

i've finally gotten used to all my friends being soo busy.
school, work. it's going to be my turn soon.
sch's starting early. 7july.
ah! the tot of taking an hr to travel to sch kills.
planned for a hol at the end of july but now..
sob:(
baby decided not to go paris, i hope we chld make smt out of his leave.
he's such a sweetheart.

im graduating on 30dec2009.
mom says its just nice, to celebrate my 21st. wahla~
i'll need to do alot before i start working..

went for bbq at jasjie's ystd. mom asked me to ask fishe along.*cheekily.
though he came aft mom and dad left,
there were too many relatives.
he was breaking out in cold sweat, literally. lol

mom kept asking me to learn composing. rrly hor.
the influence from taiwanese tv progs.
now as i type she's brainwashing me of the huge profit margin.
the copyrights, kbox, and manymany.
she wants to me go the lee brothers to learn.
aiyooo... cute lar my mom.

previously she was watching this drama where there's was this rrly cute 40yr old men who owns a long chain of cosmetic production line, many huge lavender plantations and he was soo in love with a 24yr old. btw, he stays in this castle in france (i know its all in the tv.) but she was telling me there's nothing wrong bout marrying a 40yr old, plus his so cute and successful and if he loves u soo much.... blahblah.. see where i'm coming from. so i told fishe, den he was like HUH! aiyo den how? im like only 22.. den he started telling my friends my mom wants him to be 40 blahblah. tsk tsk.

im back!

ok. i m like gone for too long since thailand.
pardon me. too many things fell in and i got too tired to do the net.
went for camp, training straight after.


anyways,
:)i totally love the place. Ah!the ppl, the culture, the clubs, the food;
im going to learn thai, i made thai friends and i soo wanna go back.
the girls are so nice, and they guys look malaysianly-bengy, the "ladyboys"(the way they call it) are soooo funny! (in the good way of cos)
so prolly july? fishe's planning a hol den & we have yet decided.
so the savings has begun.
the more i save the further i get to go.i hope hah.


jasjie's back frm the states for a wk or so,
havent seen her for sooo long. misses.
hope i rrly get to go in dec man.
but 1 mth seems too little.
well,


im starting work at AwChoc soon,
they offered a post as retailmger:)
but mom's rrly persistent bout uni and i do agree, so.
part-time first.
so besides teaching piano and awchoc, and the boy,
im like rrly free so ask me out. HEEX


- //i've been eating too much!
& sleep'g alot! my mom says im fat!
boohooo!!! im gg jogg'g later! hmmph.

i weeli weeli excited!

ohboy!
im sosososovery excited.
:):):):):):)
after the very long wait,
its bangkok with the boys!
uncle,hock,fishe-my bodyguards.
and i've successfully brainwashed hock to address me as the Princess.
we even practised the formations,
serious.
hohoho!
i'm bringing very little clothes,
alot of undies.
but its the moisturizers, sunblock, tolietries, this spray that spray
that piled up to 3bags. :/ cosmetics!

WhalA! we're goanna club like, err. everyday i think.
my uncle. hai.
hock who needs many gfs,
well. :)) shop&eat&shop&eat.

:(

ystd night, went to celebrate khim's bday with the prisch loves,
he ordered 20 chicken wings; and at 85, you get 40 chicken parts.
whoolaaa.. i don't think i'll eat another wing in a mth.
hah.


-myeyesarepuffed,mymooddampen,ineedtorelieve


goodthing, im meeting ningy to do nails.

if only i chld turn back time

Just feeling very emo all of a sudden.
deleted many posts off blogger.
soo many things in life i have regretted,
soo many i wished would have never happened.
still, there's no eraser to this life.
& all i can only hope is to make the best out of what's left.
and be glad for those
i shld be appreciative for.


Im happy now,
& i hope this time things wld turn out diff.
:)
thanku fishe for giving me so much love.
muahhs.


- &japanese silent library is freaking funny!!!! HAHAHHA

Clubcrawl08

firstday;
took some pictures but it was all on denise's cam.
these are those i have on my faithful phone,

khimy, my budd from prisch.
veronie, mysissy from highsch

2ndday;
i brought my own digi.
=) james, rene, denise, me.
of cos, i had to pose with those wildly dressed!

aHH ttaAaahh~
& i joined kickboxing. lol

beware boyfriend!
im trained now~

wensheng&m3

haha, i her him/her/hishe..err.
That's Sue ladies and gentlemen.
frm stagearts,
the sexyback roman princess (fallen)

nypcrew with jeremy&thunderboy from 91.3fm

gogoranger&thescaryclown

yeps, the kendoboy again;

&the boys who paid a visit.

first day of Clubcrawl,
tiring.
fb was so adorable.
cam-whored with veronie.
shall load tml.
zZzz.

I'm blessed with many.

well. updates :)

i've got this really adorable maltese if u guys dunno;
& my favourite chocolate is maltesers (no link but heck!)



she's fluffy, active, so heart-warming, cute&....

big attitude problem! threatens to pee when u lock her in the balcony.
Too bad, her owner MOI has big attitude problem too. ;)

Tah Dah!


thats Girl bald. Cos she's too naughty! Jie says she's ugly but what to do, get herself soiled playing with pee. Orh Bi Good!
But i like her better like that hahaha..

Well today's baby's bday but his on duty.
Gave him an early birthday "celebration",
got him a pedal.
-.- I totally know no nuts bout pedal stuffs.
but it was fun getting laughed at trying to figure what to buy haha.

When he took this picture, auntie was like; Aiyo AhGirl! Why you look sillysilly(sa-sa) one?

so i took a picture of her son and show her; (whose the real sa-sa one?? heex)
& she went, Aiyo! ErXi ah! (Son ah!) Why your eyes so small mouth open so big?
AHAHHAH!!! i so love this boy of mine. cranky, but yeah. So so so so much more den just sweet.

see- him readin my part2pressie. :) hearts
//he makes me so happie.

Am so looking forward for tml's NypClubcrawl08.

Drop by the sportshall, many interesting events lined up.=)
Hope it'll be all fun! yeeppies